Alien Skin - ALIEN SKIN LYRICS

ALIEN SKIN LYRICS

01 Where's the Hook?
where's the hook in my look?
there's nothing here but gloom
where's the hook in my look?
there's a deathly waiting room
she's blue she's red i'm alive i'm dead
where is the door to leave here?
where's the hook in my look"
there's nothing here but gloom
where's the hook in my look?
there's nothing here but gloom
she's blue she's red i'm alive i'm dead
where is the door to leave here?
she's blue she's red i'm alive i'm dead
where is the door to leave here?
where's the hook?
where's the hook?
where's the hook?
where's the hook?

02 I Speak that I Love You
i speak that I love you
when I crawl into my room
and I sit in the corner
and I watch the days die
and something is close
and it pushes me down
and I pick up the pieces
and I toss them around
and I love you and I always will
for life and death forever my love
and I break when I'm touch you
you're here and you're here not
you breathe into my ear
but I hear nothing at all
i speak that I love you
when I crawl into my room
i sit in the corner
and I watch the days die
and I love you and I always will
for life and death forever my love
and I love you and I always will
for life and death forever my love

03 The Crash the Crush
come hither come now
feel lonely feel cut
say nothing stay shut
come hither keep down
cold asylum silent crowd
i feel the edge
i feel the push
i feel the rush
the crash the crush
feel twisted feel raw
feel dirty feel stained
show nothing stay stained
come hither come down
cold asylum vacant crowd
i feel the edge
i feel the push
i feel the rush
the crash the crush
i feel the edge
i feel the push
i feel the rush
the crash the crush
i feel the edge
i feel the push
i feel the rush
the crash the crush

04 Blue Pain Dead Ends
black art sharp lines
razor cuts oblique angles
sonic grit torn melody
blue pain dead ends
find me another
find me a cause
find me a reason
to be reborn
white noise grey love
cold rooms crooked shadows
blank stare thin skin
closed door
find me another
find me a cause
find me a reason
to be reborn
find me another
find me a cause
find me a reason not
to be ignored
find me another
find me a cause
find me a reason
to be reborn

05 This Is Gloom
in the cold of night
we drag our bodies
greeting the death of light
we ache we shiver
we believe in nothing tonight
this is gloom
this is beautiful gloom
we hold council in this stone room
kiss me with your cold mouth
kiss me kiss me now
in a tomb for two
skin on skin we touch
greeting the death of light
we ache we shiver
we hold nothing precious tonight
the sword of Damocles above us tonight
this is gloom
this is beautiful gloom
we hold council in this stone room
kiss me with your cold mouth
kiss me kiss me now

01 Doomsday Doomsday
doomsday doomsday
burning through the sky
itching fingers press ready set go
I choose to go quick than linger slow
doomsday doomsday
the flags are raised
once thrown open it's hard to shut the door
gather voices shout Dylan's ‘Masters of War’
doomsday doomsday
we step into black light
you and I are facing eye to eye
we know there's no catcher in the rye
say you love me one last time
where we'll go we both know
say you love me one last time
where we'll go we both know

02 I Was an Alien
i was an alien
my earth was foreign dead
i wanted refuge i wanted free air
i didn't look like them i didn't speak like them
i was different too different
i was no one i was an alien
i don't ask you to love me
i don't ask you to care
i just want what should be mine nothing less
i don't ask you to love me
i don't ask you to care
i just want to live like you do too
i was an alien
i came here to die it wasn't hard
it wasn't strange
i didn't look like them
i didn't speak like them
i was different too different
i was hated
i was an alien
i don't ask you to love me
i don't ask you to care
i just want what should be mine nothing more
i don't ask you to love me
i don't ask you to care
i just want to live like you do too

03 Welcome to The Birthday Party
welcome to the birthday party
welcome to the birthday party
everyone you know will be there
everyone you know will be ther
welcome to the birthday party
welcome to the birthday party
i'm in a room it's very small
and I feel like a shadow on the wall
no one moves no one speaks at all
and I don't know why I even here at all
everyone will be clad in style
see everyone wrapped in style
i'm in a room a dark place
and i can't see my hands before my face
shapes move they move away
and i don't know why
I even bother to stay
welcome to the birthday party
welcome to the birthday party

04 A Pretty Corpse a Scaffold of Life
vampire moon
drains all colour from the world
cheerless life, cheerless life
faces ashen and blunt
mouths open and numb
cheerless life, cheerless life
a pretty corpse a scaffold of life
a pretty corpse a scaffold of life
collapsed and forgotten
collapsed and forgotten
a rosary dangles
from a white thin neck
hapless life, hapless life
my vampire moon
aroused by the wind
and the smell of the dark
a pretty corpse a scaffold of life
a pretty corpse a scaffold of life
collapsed and forgotten
collapsed and forgotten
a pretty pretty corpse a scaffold of life
a pretty pretty corpse collapsed and forgotten
a pretty corpse a scaffold of life
collapsed and forgotten
collapsed and forgotten
collapsed and forgotten

05 Lipstick Funeral
lipstick funeral
you look so beautiful
your lipstick funeral
lipstick funeral
frozen bitter valentine
her bitter valentine
her bitter valentine
frozen beauty
frozen beauty
your lazy darkness
leave me tombstone roses
leave me tombstone roses
lipstick funeral
lipstick funeral
you look so beautiful
your lipstick funeral
lipstick funeral

01 She's Like A Diamond
she's like a diamond
and she cuts through
every walled up thought and memory
i don't hear her breathing but she's everywhere
in spaces I avoid
i spoke that i love you
i spoke that i love you
i spoke that i love
i spoke into darkness
i spoke into dead air
i spoke that i feel

she's in the silence
and she cuts through
every part I sealed away
she's in the silence
and she cuts through
every part I sealed away
i spoke that i love you
i spoke that i love you
i spoke that i love
i spoke into darkness
i spoke into dead air
i spoke that i feel

monday takes me
tuesday hates me
wednesday makes me crawl
thursday kills me
friday makes me laugh at it all
friday makes me laugh at it all

she's like a diamond
and she cuts through
every walled up thought
and memory
i don't hear her breathing
but she's everywhere
in spaces I avoid
i spoke into darkness
i spoke into dead air
i spoke that i feel

she's like a diamond
and she cuts through
every walled up thought
and memory

02 Kiss Me Into Ruin
i dress up like another life
i dress the silence in my life
she walks my way and i walk away
I dress up for another life
kiss me into ruin
drowning in your void
kiss me into ruin
silence under glass
sorrow sorrow sorrow on my tongue
keeps me keeps me in the black
she walked away and I cut the day
sorrow sorrow sorrow on my tongue
kiss me into ruin
drowning in your void
kiss me into ruin
silence under glass

03 Black Messy Mascara
the makeup on your eyes makes me smile
and just for this while
I feel free, free to fly
fly off this building
and I feel safe, safe inside
safe inside knowing you
you are waiting there for me

face to face to face
you and I face to face
wearing black messy mascara
we share the same we share the same

the makeup on your eyes makes me smile
and just in this moment
I feel free, free to fly
fly off this building
and I feel safe, safe inside of me
safe inside of me
knowing you, you are down below waiting

wearing black messy mascara
we share the same we share the same
and i stay aware as we fall to ground

wearing black messy mascara
we look the same we look the same
wearing black messy mascara
on the sidewalk below
we lie there people walk around us

04 Quite As A Grave
quiet as a grave
lost inside your cold
voices wearing thin
this absence bleeds slow
quiet cracks apart
voices whispering
stillness cuts so deep
i'm numb beneath my skin

black light swallows me
shadows cut our name
the blade remembers you
quiet as a grave
lost inside your cold
voices wearing thin
this absence bleeds slow

01 I Loved You Through Every Collapse
I loved you through every collapse
the blade wrapped in silk
romance bleeding in monochrome
my darling guillotine
my darling guillotine
the rose is dead the blade still shines
her kiss is buried in my mind
the world forgets but I do not
I hold her ghost and nothing's left
it's gone to rot
my whisper chokes in rapid pain
with your breath around my throat
I press my lips against the void
a hunger dressed in black
I press my lips against the void
a hunger dressed in black
obsession twisting in my head
obsession twisting in my head
the rose is dead the blade still shines
her kiss is buried in my mind
the world forgets but I do not
I hold her ghost and nothing's left
it's gone to rot
your silence seeps like opium
your silence seeps like opium
i keep the blade beside my heart
where i once kept you
your silence seeps like opium
addictive beautiful decay

02 World End Me You
empty streets broken sound
paper walls falling down
cold machines hollow hands
no escape no one stands
it is the end of the world
the world that we knew
it is the end of the world
me and you me and you
iron rain in the air
dead clouds my despair
grey hum in my veins
black void in my brain
it is the end of the world
the world that we knew
it is the end of the world
me and you me and you
this is the end of the world
this is the end of the world
the world we knew
the world we knew
me and you me and you
me and you

03 Transmission In the Wires
she's here with me again
transmission in the wires
she's white noise
transmission in the wires
with her grey green eyes
she will look my way and i will falter
with her grey green eyes
she will look my way and i will falter
it hurts to hear her voice
distortion in the wires
i bleed inside my head
a distortion in the wires
with her grey green eyes
she will look my way and i will falter
with her grey green eyes
she will look my way and i will falter
she's white noise
she's white noise
she's white noise
transmission in the wires
transmission in the wires

04 She's My Love
my love feels cold
my love feels cold
my heart is flesh
but i feel less
than a pulsing human
her eyes are closed
her eyes are closed
her lips are mine
but she feels less
than a pulsing human
the skin is numb
the skin is numb
the veins are slow
and we feel less
than pulsing humans
in motion
every corpuscle
in motion
every blood cell inside
in motion
i struggle to move
my love feels cold
my love feels cold
my heart is flesh
and i feel nothing
when i'm in her absence
she's my love / always
she's my love / always
she's my love / always
she's my love / always

05 Atomic Lovers Bunker Dancing
my eyes are lined with black
mascara eyes sharp and black
on this funeral day
on this funeral day
on this funeral day
let's dance let's dance and fade away
let's dance let's dance and fade away
let's dance fade with me
let's dance fade with me
my face is pale and damp
the heat is humid down here
on this funeral day
on this funeral day
on this funeral day
let's dance let's dance
fade with me together
let's dance fade with me
let's dance fade with me
atomic lovers bunker dancing
fading together forever
atomic lovers bunker dancing
fading together forever
on this funeral day
on this funeral day
swoon swoon swoon
let's dance let's dance fade with me together
let's dance dance dance dance
let's dance dance dance dance let's dance
let's dance and fade with me l
Let's dance and fade with me
fade with me

COLD HAND ON A GLASS WALL

She's Here
black tears on a white dress
dead love on a rose bed
sore eyes and a cold mouth
fingers on a blade fingers on a blade
she's here she's here but not for me
she's here she's here but not for me

dark stain on a pale floor
cold hand on a glass wall
bare skin with a numb grin
shadows in the frame shadows in the frame
she's here she's here but not for me
she's here she's here but not for me

i hold this silence like a vow
with every crack upon my brow
she spoke in mirrors never clear
I reach for her and she disappeared

she's here she's here but not for me
she's here she's here but not for me
she's here she's here
she's here but not for me she's here
she's here but not for me

Delusion
i look at you i look at you
i'm watching you and i crawl on my hands
i don't want you i don't want you
i don't want this
i don't want either me or you

we feel the same we hurt the same
we in flesh and will do betray ourselves
i don't want this i don't want this
i don't want all this
and i don't want either me or you

your books are full of razors
that bleed me when I read
within my mortal lifetime
i'll never reach inside your dreams
thin and skinless i cup my ears
every time we scream
this delusion is something
that's a mantra to me

Delusion 2
your books are full of razors
that bleed me when I read
within my mortal lifetime
i'll never reach inside your dreams

your books are full of razors
that bleed me when I read
within my mortal lifetime
i'll never ever reach inside your dreams

thin and skinless i cup my ears
every time we scream
this delusion is something that's
a mantra to me

give me something to believe in
give me the hand of your cold dark
give me something to believe in
give me the hand of your cold dark

there is no challenge anymore
my feet are nailed to the floor
i cannot walk away I cannot kill the day
i'm here and you're not

this delusion this delusion this delusion
keeps me alive
this delusion this delusion this delusion
keeps me alive keeps me alive
this delusion this delusion this delusion
keeps me alive keeps me alive

MY 80s TRENCHCOAT CASSETTE

i saw The Cure
in skeleton lines angular looks
it was fun it was fun
i saw Joy Division
blood line black god smacked black
my asylum fun my asylum fun
i saw Depeche Mode
leather skin electronic bleak
morose fun morose fun
i love you when you look so bad
i love you when you look so bad
i love you when you look so low
i think you're nearly here with me in my low
i saw Siouxsie Sioux
misshaped my brain with scalpel eyes
it was fun
i saw The Bunnymen croon
beneath the killing field moon
trenchcoat grey
it was fun
i love you when you look so bad
i love you when you look so bad
i love you when you look so low
i think you're nearly here with me in my low
you're here with me in my low

NOBODY FORCED ME TO LOVE

01 Nobody Forced Me to Love
depression as familiarity
and past love as a sealed grave
silence as violence
closeness as surrender
silence as violence
nobody forced me to love
nobody forced me to love
nobody nobody nobody forced me to love
hope as a vanishing point
touch as a memory trap
memory as confinement
truth as disintegration
memory as confinement
nobody forced me to love
nobody forced me to love
nobody nobody forced me to love
this pain as foundational
desire as fatal decay
the present as erasure
the future as repetition
the present as erasure
nobody forced me to love
nobody forced me to love
nobody nobody nobody forced me to love

02 My Mortuary
i want to dance with somebody who's not
somebody who's not here tonight
i watched her leave and i
still can't conceive that i'm
here and she's cold space in me
in my mortuary
in my mortuary
i want to dance with somebody who's not
somebody who's not here tonight
i watched her leave and i
still can't conceive that i'm
here and she's cold space in me
in my mortuary
in my mortuary
it is dark it is dark
in my head in my brain in my...
i kissed the face that i
will not replace and she's
still a cold space in me
in my mortuary
in my mortuary
it is dark it is dark
in my head in my brain in my mortuary

03 You Can't Outrun What's In Your Veins
you can't outrun what's in your veins
the past replays the hurt remains
no saints no stars no saving sign
just solemn skin and faulting lines
i trace the scars i left behind
a vandal lost inside my mind
these pages blur the ink won't stay
i write regret in shades of grey

you can't outrun what's in your veins
the past replays the hurt remains
no saints no stars no saving sign
just solemn skin and faulting lines
no saving light no second skin
i see the shape i'm buried in
this isn't grief it's just the cost
of keeping count of all I've lost
solemn skin with faulting lines
the psycho pain of warning signs
my novel reads like hurt served cold
i think this spin is getting old

04 This Is the Silence
cancelled eyes no way back
future void past turned black
wounded love a gothic lust
silent kiss no more trust no more trust
this is the silence we've come to know
this is the silence we've come to know
the wind howls through towers of glass
reflections of lives that never did last
this is the silence we've come to know
this is the silence
no voice above no path below
this is the silence we've come to know
this is the silence
touch is lost in a dream
whispered scream whispered scream
touch is lost in a dream
whispered scream whispered scream
in the cracked concrete secrets remain
carved into walls an eternal blood stain
this is the silence
no voice above no path below
this is the silence i have come to know
this is the silence i have come to know
this is the silence

COLDWAVE MANIFESTO

01 Coldwave Forever
this is my coldwave
rising from the ice
rising from my cold grave
here i am, here i was,
my phantom skin
my hand in the air
but they only see through me
forever and forever
you and i forever
we will decay in this ruin
forever forever forever
this was my last breath
frozen on the wind
drifting through the white death
here i kneel, here i wait,
my shadow thin
my shape in the snow
but the world just walks past me
forever and forever
you and i forever
we will decay in this ruin
we dance beneath a dead white sky
the future cracked, the past won't die
nailed to a dream now long gone
love, decay, repeat, go on
love, decay, repeat, go on
this is my coldwave
rising from the ice
rising from my cold grave
here i am, here i was,
my phantom skin
my hand in the air
but they only see through me
forever and forever
you and i forever
we will decay in this ruin

02 Necromancer
she walks like a ghost beside me
she walks like a ghost beside me
and i feel this darkness in my hand
and i feel this darkness in my hand
she stands like a ghost beside me
she stands like a ghost beside me
and i feel this darkness in my hand
and i feel this darkness in my hand
my underground romancer
my underground romancer
necromancer
she lures like a siren goddess
she lures like a siren goddess
and i feel her coldness in my hand
and i feel her coldness in my hand
she's in my veins she's in my veins
she's in my veins she's in my veins
my underground romancer
my underground romancer
necromancer
she's cold like porcelain china
she's cold like porcelain china
and i feel the coldness in my hands
and i feel the coldness on my skin
she's in my veins she's in my veins
she's in my veins she's in my veins
she walks like a ghost beside me

03 Kill Me Now Before I Die
everyone said,
you’ll be the death of me,
this solemn night,
this mournful prophecy,
Berlin bleak,
beneath the post war ruin,
I feel buried deep,
with you,
this is our undoing.
kill me now before i die
while there's still a flicker in my eye
before i rot behind my smile
before this love defiles the lie
kill me now before i'm gone
before my shadow drags me down too long
before the silence learns my name
and every breath becomes the same
boots on brick
the dead parade
a rusted march
through love decayed
your hand on mine
but not for long
I'm here with you
and we don't belong
we don't belong
kill me now before i die
while there's still a flicker in my eye
before i rot behind my smile
before this love defiles the lie
kill me now before i'm gone
before my shadow drags too long
before the silence learns my name
and every breath becomes the same

NOTHING BUT DEAD DESIRE

01 It's OK to Be Human
it's ok to be human it's ok to be human
love or love not hate or hate not it's ok to be human
cry or cry not persist or exist not it's ok to be human
lust or feel not lie or believe not it's ok to be human
imbibe or drink not speak or confide not it's ok to be human
i and we and
you and she and
they and he and
we are homo
proud or fear not rage or fight not it's ok to be human
care or care not detest or detest not it's ok to be human
i and we and
you and she and
they and he and
we are homo
it's ok to be human it's ok to be human
it's ok to be human it's ok to be human
mistrust or deny not forget or forgive not it's ok to be human
lust or feel not lie or believe not it's ok to be human
i and we and
you and she and
they and he and
we are homo
it's ok to be human it's ok to be human

02 Love Hate
she's a liar she told me she hates me
she's a liar she smote me
just to spare me when i lose her
just to save me when i lose her
she's a cryptic she told me she's blood red
she's anemic she's a cancer
just to spare me when i lose her
just to save me when she leaves me
love hate love hate love hate love hate
love hate love hate love hate love hate
love hate love hate love hate love hate
love hate love hate love hate love hate
just to spare me when i lose her
just to save me when she leaves me
love hate love hate love hate love hate
love hate love hate love hate love hate
love hate love hate love hate love hate
love hate love hate love hate love hate

03 Nothing But Dead Desire
solemn morning heavy eyelids
dancing mood swings razor memories
gravel voices shouting at me
in the dampness in the dim light
waxen candles dripping fire
in my head burns dead desire
there is nothing but dead desire
in my head smokes dead desire
nothing but dead desire nothing but dead desire
I am nervous an automaton
all alone with just a smart phone
my eyes are calloused my ears are ringing
my chest is tight with tomorrow's warning
i'm in a small box of my own making
in my head lives dead desire
there is nothing but dead desire
in my head smokes dead desire
nothing but dead desire nothing but dead desire
nothing but dead desire nothing but dead desire
solemn morning heavy eyelids
dancing mood swings razor memories
gravel voices shouting at me
in the dampness in the dim light
waxen candles dripping fire
in my head burns dead desire
there is nothing but dead desire
in my head smokes dead desire
nothing but dead desire nothing but dead desire
nothing but dead desire nothing but dead desire

04 Monomania
i don't want to live forever
i want to be free
i want to be free
i don't want to live forever
i want to be free
i want to be free
monomania this is my monomania
monomania this is my monomania
i can't pretend for ever
i don't want this
i don't want this
i can't love this pain forever
i don't want this
i don't want this
monomania this is my monomania
monomania this is my monomania

I SHUT DOWN

i miss you i miss you
when the weather is bitter and my skin turns raw
i miss you i miss you
i turn the leaf and each page carries a memory
there are times when i just shut down
there are times when i just shut down
i miss you i miss you
every shadow every sound
i still jump i still turn around
there are times when i just shut down
there are times when i just shut down
there are times when i just shut down
there are times when i just shut down-

01 Bombs with Love from My friends
black dirt on my mouth
face down in the ground
the sky is screaming with jets
bombs with love from my friends
small hole in my chest
red hue in my eye
sky is gun metal grey
bombs with love from my friends
live live live don't let die, die, die
live live live don't let die, die, die
live live live don't let die, die, die
live live live don't let die, die, die
live live live don't let die, die, die

02 Casually We'll Walk Into the Fire
I want to hold your hand
I want to hold your hand
and casually we'll walk into the fire
I want to hold your hand again
I want to hold your hand again
casually we'll walk into the fire
I want to drown in the ocean
I want to drown in the sea
I want to drown in the ocean
If that's the only way to bring you near me

I Play All My Records Till I Don't Look So Blue
you have life but you are not living
in your skin that never bleeds
i have guilt but i'm not guilty
i've never shown this honesty
i'm awake but i'm not conscious
the machine just clicks on inside of me
i'm awake but i'm not conscious
the machine just clicks on inside of me
in the corner of my room I sit I play
all my records till I don't look so blue
in the corner of my room I sit I play
all my records till I don't look so blue
i wake up every time i wake up every time
in my sleep in my dreams I never die
it hurts every time razors in my mind
in my dreams in the dark how do you die?
you have life but you are not living
in your skin that never bleeds
in the corner of my room I sit I play
all my records till I don't look so blue
in the corner of my room I sit I play
all my records till I don't look so blue

She Lives In Tunnels
Her eyes hurt from exposure to the day
Her skin blistered and began to flay
She may be the last person left alive
In this the year of 2025
She lives in tunnels
She lives in tunnels
The military built a city underground
A nuclear strike was deemed reasonable and sound
In preparation they had a hundred years of food
And there were provisions for every kind of mood
She lives in tunnels
She lives in tunnels
Now the earth's surface is a radioactive sewer
All the good folks died and fauna and flora fried
She lives in tunnels without another human sound
She kills her time searching hoping for another being to be found
She lives in tunnels
She lives in tunnels
She lives in tunnels
She lives in tunnels

I'm Waiting for Heaven
Noise and shops go away
Petrol fumes and advertising
Fast cars and faster people
Things lying dead on the pavement
And I'm just waiting for heaven
I'm just hoping for sleep
I'm just waiting for heaven
I'm just hoping for sleep
Filth and lucre go away
Ringing phones and social media
And I'm just waiting for heaven
I'm just hoping for sleep
I'm just waiting for heaven
I'm just hoping for sleep
(G Pappas - S Beckett)

Let's Play Apocalypse Now
there is rain
and i see the skies getting darker
killing the moon,
there is heat
and i feel the winds growing violent
in a filthy mood,
run run run
i want to find a hole to lie in
run run run
it's occupied someone's found it to die in
in the sky
there are planes and drones some are friendly
some are plain murder,
i don't wait
for the bombs to stop i keep moving
like an insect moves,
run run run
i want to find a hole to lie in
run run run
it's occupied someone's found it to die in
let's play apocalypse now
let's play apocalypse now
let's play apocalypse now
let's play apocalypse now

IN THE 80s

01 In the 80s
young man in the 80s
i felt i could die with you
young man in the 80s
the cold war dark i shared with you
she said she said
i want to crash with you
fall from the sky with you
i want to bleed with you
there is no perfect end with or without you
with or without you
with or without you
with or without you well
young man in the 80s
i felt i could die with you
young man in the 80s
the cold war dark i shared with you
she said she said
i want to feel with you
fall to the deep with you
i want to scream with you
there is no perfect end with or without you
with or with out you without you without
there is no perfect end with or without you
with or without you
there is no perfect end with or without you
with or with out you

02 Always Cold
her city pulse
bloodied veil
her shear chiffon
she's winter's ice
atomic split
twisted veins
shadows bleed
in winter's ice
i don't feel the sun outside my skin
i have always been cold
i don't feel the warmth within my flesh
i have always been cold
her mortal frame
my mortal pain
this venom drip
in desperate ice
her mortal frame
my mortal pain
this venom drip
desperate ice
i don't feel the sun outside my skin
i have always been cold
i don't feel the warmth within my flesh
i have always been cold
i've always always been cold
cold i've always always been cold
and i'm cold
i've always always been cold
cold cold i've always always been cold

03 Dress Up In Chains
dress up your eyes and come to me
smear on your lipstick and come to me
dress up in black from head to your feet
why don't you visit me right now
why don't you visit me right now
deadpan your face and come to me
swell up your veins and slide to me
dress up in chains your hands and your feet
why don't you visit me right now
why don't you visit me right now

04 Yesterday Leave Me Alone
icy mask
underpass
gothic grave
gallows's art
punctured heart
bonded slave
other voices
seasick mouth
agenda void
resistant death
frozen breath
atomic night
yesterday leave me alone
yesterday leave me alone
ancient fear
metal tear
broken name
cold as stone
moonlit stone
shadows bend
other voices
seasick mouth
agenda void
resistant death
frozen breath
atomic night
yesterday leave me alone
yesterday leave me alone

05 In the 80s (Grey Concrete City mix)
young man in the 80s
i felt i could die with you
young man in the 80s
the cold war dark i shared with you
she said she said
young man in the 80s
my youth in pain with you
young man in the 80s
the grey concrete city with you
with you with you
i want to crash with you
fall from the sky with you
i want to bleed with you
there is no perfect end with or without you
with or without you
with or without you
with or without you well
young man in the 80s
i fell in love with you
young man in the 80s
the cold war dark i shared with you
she said she said
she said she said
i want to feel with you
fall to the deep with you
i want to scream with you
there is no perfect end with or without you
with or with out you without you
with or with out you
with or with out you
there is no perfect end with or without you

LETTER TO MY FURHER

crashing cars and violins fail
smashing pipes and bullet heads fail
red laser gun while sniper chews mint gum
red laser gun while sniper chews mint gum
dear fuhrer why don't you die?
dear fuhrer why can't you die?
dear fuhrer why can't you die?
dear fuhrer vampire of dead dead dead blood
architects of gothic darkness
bloodstained glass of gothic churches
red bloated skin face stealing our common air
red bloated skin face stealing our common air
dear fuhrer why don't you die?
dear fuhrer why can't you die?
dear fuhrer why can't you die?
dear fuhrer vampire of dead dead dead blood

ATOMIC LOVE

01 The World Ended Yesterday
she she dances
she she dances
the world ended yesterday
atomic love
atomic death
just you and I just you and I left
and we're dancing to death
she she dances
in the last days of the world
she she dances
the world ended yesterday
atomic love
atomic death
just you and I just you and I left
and we're dancing to death

02 Atomic Love Is A Turn On
tomorrow is thursday
it's the day of the war
tomorrow i run from
where do i run and what for?
tomorrow is thursday
tomorrow is thursday
a good war can be won
atomic love is a turn on
to the ghouls that make love with a gun
tomorrow is thursday
here it comes here it comes
tomorrow is thursday
tomorrow is thursday
here it comes here it comes here it comes
tomorrow is over
yesterday is now dead
did i know this forever?
i've been a bloody mess in my head

I LOVE YOU MY DARK

red lips gorging with blood
i love your red lips
bleeding on mine
bending shadows
frozen light
scornful memories
graveyard night
forcing me against the wall
bending shadows
frozen light
scornful memories
graveyard night
my veins are pulsing for your call
forever
my head on your door
within and without you
forever more
bending shadows
frozen light
scornful memories
graveyard night
forcing me against the wall
bending shadows
frozen light
scornful memories
graveyard night
my veins are pulsing for your call
i love you i love you i love you my dark
i love you i love you i love you my dark

DISCOTHEQUE ASYLUM

01 In An Empty Room
in an empty room i'm close to you
into an empty room i crawl to you
every shadow every splash of rain
an invisible cutting lash of pain
in an empty room
in an empty room
in an empty room i'm starved of air
in a basement cell it's easy to dare
a final light from a fallen moon
i feel the dark night i feel it coming soon
in an empty room
in an empty room

02 Discotheque Asylum
take me a cross with you
take me a cross with you
i'm drowning here alone
i'm drowning here alone
so take me across with you
take me across with you
discotheque asylum discotheque asylum
discotheque asylum discotheque asylum with you
dance dance to death
dance dance dance to death
you say your lips are bleeding
you say your lips are bleeding
you say your lips are bleeding
you say your lips are bleeding
kiss my lips
bring me closer to you
dance so dark with you
i'm asphyxiating alone
i'm asphyxiating alone
so dance so dark with you
dance so dark with you
discotheque asylum discotheque asylum
discotheque asylum discotheque asylum with you
dance dance to death
dance dance dance to death
you say your lips are bleeding
you say your lips are bleeding
you say your lips are bleeding
you say your lips are bleeding
kiss my lips
discotheque asylum discotheque asylum
discotheque asylum discotheque asylum with you

03 I Want My Asylum
cellar of wine
ghostly perfume
cobwebs of thread
a blood thirsty moon
shadows of stone
hidden away
silent as death
unromantic decay
and i want my asylum
and i want my asylum here
a taste of ash on the tongue
away from the sun
underground life
a pulsating heart
black raven's wing
in perpetual flight
swoops through hollow veins
unromantic decay
and i want my asylum
and i find my asylum here
and i want my asylum
and i want my asylum here
and i find my asylum
and i find my asylum here

04 Love You In Your Skin
there is love dripping blood from mortal eyes
there is noise white and sharp from dieing skies
i will love you in your skin
i will love you dead within
i will wait inside my head
of a thousand empty spaces
i will love you in your skin
i will love you dead within
i will wait inside my head
of a thousand empty spaces
there's a hole filthy black devoid of life
there's a light that fights to live but always dies
i will love you dead within
i will wait inside my head
of a thousand empty spaces
i will love you in your skin
i will love you dead within
i will wait inside my head

RETRO ICE MACHINE

01 The World Swings On A Gallows' Pole
the world it swings on a gallows pole
how many more generations left to go?
the world it swings on a gallows pole
how many more future deaths before i go?
it's come back to me it's come back to me
it's come back to me it's come back
the world it swings on a gallows pole
how many more wars should we plan before we go?
the world it swings on a gallows pole
how many more wars should we plan before we go?
it's come back to me it's come back to me
it's come back to me it's come back
i've been dead for a million years
i've been dead for a million years
i've been dead for a million years
i've been dead for a million years
it's come back to me it's come back to me
it's come back to me it's come back
the world world world's on a gallows pole
the world world world's on a gallows pole
the world world world's on a gallows pole

02 I Had A Dream I Murdered Everybody
cold room
i'm in the coldest room of your house
cold room
i'm in the coldest room of your house
and i can't see you anywhere
i, i had a dream i murdered everybody
before they could murder me
and i relive that dream everyday
when i am awake when i am awake now
why am i even having thoughts like these?
sometimes i sicken myself
sometimes i sicken sometimes i sicken myself
i, i had a dream i murdered everybody
before they could murder me
and i relive that dream everyday
when i am awake when i am awake now
i, i had a dream i, i had a dream
and i, i had a dream i murdered everybody
before they could murder me

03 Snarling Grey Day
isolation
she has nothing left isolation
alienation
we have nothing left alienation
who ever said i love you?
who ever said i love you?
who ever said i love you?
who ever said i love you?
snarling grey day
sneering at me
snarling grey day
cynical grey day
looking at me
who ever said i love you?
who ever said i love you?
who ever said i love you?
who ever said i love you?
isolation
my own prisoner
isolation left me dying
dead dead
left me dying
who ever said i love you?
who ever said i love you?
who ever said i love you?
who ever said i love you?

04 Inside This Iceberg
i want to touch you i want to hold you
i want to touch you i want to hold you
i want to touch you i want to hold you
a million years have passed
but i've been frozen inside for a million years
inside this iceberg inside this iceberg
i feel cold i feel cold
i want to touch you i want to hold you
i want to touch you i want to hold you
i feel cold i feel cold
but i've been frozen inside for a million years
inside this iceberg inside this iceberg
i feel cold
i want to touch you i want to hold you
i want to touch you i want to hold you
inside this iceberg inside this iceberg

HERPERFECT GUILLOTINE DANCE

this noise is perfect for a dance
her guillotine dance
this pain is perfect for a dance
her guillotine dance
her perfect guillotine dance
her perfect guillotine dance
i've lost my head i've lost my head
i've lost my head i've lost my head
i've lost my head i've lost my head
i've lost my head i've lost my head
and i love and i love and i love
this drug is perfect for romance
her guillotine dance
her perfect guillotine dance
her perfect guillotine dance
i've lost my head i've lost my head
i've lost my head i've lost my head
i've lost my head i've lost my head
i've lost my head i've lost my head
and i love and i love and i love
and i love her perfect guillotine dance
and i love her perfect guillotine dance
and i love her perfect guillotine dance

GREY AS ALL FUCK
there is a volcano ready to explode
and i feel its heat burn inside of me
every moment that i have lived
is collected in my book
when it's time i 'll tear the pages free
shine this light away from me
i have the moon i have the black sea
shine this light away from me
i have the moon i have the black sea
there's an explosion in my head
like a meteor entering through my eyes
every moment i have lived
that's enough for me it's enough for me
and i'll meet you nowhere special
shine this light away from me
i have the moon i have the black sea
shine this light away from me
i have the moon i have the black sea
in my lifetime in my life time
in my lifetime you've lived
in my lifetime you've lived
in my lifetime

COLD
cold
i feel so cold i feel cold
i need the sun to shine again
and release my memories
and lay them in an unmarked grave
cold
i feel so cold i feel cold
i want to see beauty
not more destruction
that will leave me in an unmarked grave
it's twelve o'clock and i'm still here
and i'm thinking
i don't recognize the world that i was born in
it's twelve o'clock and i'm still here
and still thinking
that i don't recognize the world which i was born in
cold
i feel so cold i feel cold
i need a touch a human hand
do not deny me and leave me in an unmarked grave

MEMORY OF IRENE
i never heard you cry
i thought all women cried
and though you may look blue
no shadow ares follow you
red hair green eyes
a street smart black dress
and you've got it all
you've got it all my love
red hair green eyes
a street smart black dress
and you've got it all
you've got it all my love
you could go from low to high
and life's too short to die
and even when you're blue
no shadow dares hang over you
red hair green eyes
a street smart black dress
and you've got it all
you've got it all my love
red hair green eyes
a street smart black dress
and you've got it all
you've got it all my love

MY BEAUTIFUL BLACK

01 Equal and None
i love you i still love you
i'm here and in good time we'll both be
equal or none equal and none
we'll be equal and none we'll be equal
i still love you i still love you
there's no one else who cares about you now
no one left who cares about you
i love you i still love you
i'm here and in time we'll both be equal
here will be none none
i walk into the valley in the moon
i'm blindfolded my darkness doesn't care
each and every breath i laboured for
returns me to the hole i climbed out from
i feel the cold even though i'm burning up
i still love you i still love you
there's no one else who cares about you now
no one left who cares about you
i love you i still love you
i'm here and in time we'll both be equal
here will be none none
i love you i'm here and in good time we'll both be
equal or none equal and none
i love you i love you

02 My Beautiful Black
my beautiful black eyes dress
my beautiful black skin hair
lock your arms around me
lock your arms around me
i love i love i love you
my beautiful black mind heart
my beautiful black life love
lock your arms around me
put your arms around me
lock your arms around
put your arms around
i love i love i love you

03 Eyes More A.I. than Blue
she tells me she's a liar
i know that for a fact
at least she's not a liar
we've established that
her membrane looks so perfect
it can fool me if i choose
and her eyes are more A.I. than
more A.I. than blue
the bookshelf's full of reading
the maps are on the wall
she's digested all that reading
but all she knows is dead recall
her membrane is so perfect
it can fool me if i choose
but her eyes are more A.I. than
more A.I. than blue
i can tell you what you want
i can tell you what you need
i can be your perfect other
i can be your perfect l....
the touch she has misleads me
like i'm drugged with fallen eyes
my head philosophizes meaning
but i'm sick of all that
her membrane is so perfect
it can fool me if i choose
but her eyes are more A.I. than
more A.I. than blue
i can tell you what you want
i can tell you what you need
i can be your perfect other
i can be your perfect l....

04 Follow You Over the Precipice
skin like dust
blood like ice
dead rose on her hair
she will follow she will follow you
over the precipice
mouth to mouth
void to void
black earth near the edge
she will follow she will follow you
over the precipice
just keep away from me
just keep away from me
taste of salt
calm inside the dark
she will follow she will follow you
over the precipice

THE HAPPIEST FACE

you're the happiest face in the world
the happiest face in the world
i never thought that you could hurt the way i do
and in spite of all your talk you can be hurt too
sometimes it's obvious sometimes you run to change
to the happiest face in the world
the happiest face in the world
i always thought that you stood tall within yourself
i never thought that you hoped to be someone else
sometimes it's obvious sometimes you run to change
to the happiest face in the world
the happiest face in the world
happiest happiest happiest face
happiest happiest happiest face

NIHILISTIC

01 Nihilistic
i want a way out of here
spin all my records
lying on my stomach
dreaming i'm Bowie again
i want my future back again
render my vision
smash down the prison
that i confined my head in
and i hated you and i hated me
there's nothing new under the sun
i hated everything
i want the breath i have lost
choking inside me
the disembodied self me
struggling for what's evaded me
and i hated you and i hated me
there's nothing new under the sun
i hated everything
am i nihilistic and who cares
am i nihilistic and who cares
am i nihilistic and who cares
am i nihilistic and who cares
and i hated you and i hated me too
there's nothing new under the sun
i hated everything and i hated everything
am i nihilistic and who cares
am i nihilistic and who cares
am i nihilistic and who cares

02 She Said I Have No Good News to Bring
she likes to regale in black
she likes to talk with him
and though he's been gone so long
his face has long been gone
she said don't follow me
she said if this disturbs you
she said i have no good news to bring
she said she said
there is a mark around her neck
and i taste it with my finger
it's claret claret red
it was her passport it was her choice
her destination
vale vale vale vale vale vale vale vale vale
she said don't follow me
she said if this disturbs you
she said i have no good news to bring
she said she said

03 I Put Her Dress On
i put her dress on to feel her skin
she doesn't feel like I want to feel her
i put her dress on her pleasure and pain
she doesn't feel how i want her to feel
the rose is dead it's claret red
it's blood stained red it's red on white again
i want to swallow wine
i want to drown till my eyes turn red
i want to swallow whatever there is
i want to be with her again
i'm feeling nervous i can't replicate
this doesn't feel like i want to feel her
the rose is dead it's claret red
it's blood stained red it's red on white again
i want to swallow wine
i want to drown till my eyes turn red
i want to swallow whatever there is
i want to be with her again
i want to be with you again

04 I Have Killed Myself
biting on my fingers
stare into the waters
Shelley in the waters
stupid with a corpse grin
almond eyes and purple lips
i have died for you
i have died for you
i have killed myself
over and over again
soft flesh in the waters
jealous angry waters
Shelley in his wet grave
i'm stupid with a corpse grin
my almond eyes and purple lips
screaming screaming choir
screaming dead souls choir
drowned by hell's choir
i have died for you
i have died with you
i have killed myself
over and over again
i have died for you
i have died with you
i have killed myself
over and over again
over again

WE DON'T WANT THIS

We Don't Want This
i don't want this
i don't want this
we don't want this
we don't want this
bombs on people
blood on people
bullets on people
wars on people
i don't want this
we don't want this
we don't want this we don't want this
we don't want this we don't want this
i don't want this
i don't want this
we don't want this
we don't want this
hate on people
religion on people
stomp in people
deny rights on people
i don't want this
we don't want this
we don't want this we don't want this
we don't want this we don't want this
we don't want this we don't want this
we don't want this we don't want this

COME AND SEE ME WHEN I"M IN MY HEAD ALONE

01 Come and See Me When I'm in My Head Alone
come and see me when i'm in my head alone
come and see me when i'm in my head alone
sheena was a girl she dressed like you
she raged like a storm she slashed like a knife
sheena was dark as dark as you
bleeding from her eyes the same as you
come and see me when i'm in my head alone
come and see me when i'm in my head alone sheena
sheena was a girl she hurt to the quick
just like you she stared to the wind
sheena was sharp astute like you
she taught me to know more than i do
come and see me when i'm in my head alone
come and see me when i'm in my head alone
come and see me when my head is all alone
come and see me when my head is all alone
come and see me come and see me
come and see me when my head is all alone
come and see me come and see me

02 Kiss My Lips Before they Turn Blue
cathedral empty death quiet concrete bunker grey
buried bodies die twice in fear and decay
borrowed lives with bombshell eyes in urban block tombs
air raid sirens scream hell nothing left moves
wait don't wait kiss my lips before they turn blue
kiss my lips before they turn blue
icy mortuary in the gulf of pre death bay
hide me in a foxhole till the sickness dies away
borrowed lives with bombshell eyes in urban block tombs
air raid sirens scream hell nothing left moves
wait don't wait kiss my lips before they turn blue
kiss my lips before they turn blue
kiss my lips before they turn blue
kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss
wait don't wait wait don't wait
kiss my lips before they turn blue
kiss my lips before they turn blue
kiss my lips kiss my lips kiss my lips

BURY ME IN SHADOWS OF SILENCE

01 Bury Me in Shadows of Silence
thinking of you saddens me
memories don't help they're of little value
a constant reminder of what's been lost
they only cut sharper wounds
they only make sharper wounds
so bury me in shadows of silence
bury me in shadows of silence
keep me quiet with no thoughts at all
so bury me in shadows of silence

you cannot know how gagged i've felt
not having you to talk to
suffocating isolated angry
when no other self for me has meaning
bury me in shadows of silence
the cold cheerless wind is blowing
the cold cheerless wind is blowing
so bury me in shadows of silence

bury me in shadows of silence
bury me in shadows of silence
bury me in shadows of silence

02 I Shut Down
i miss you i miss you
when the weather is bitter and my skin turns raw
i miss you i miss you
i turn the leaf and each page carries a memory
there are times when i just shut down
there are times when i just shut down
i miss you i miss you
every shadow every sound
i still jump i still turn around
there are times when i just shut down
there are times when i just shut down
there are times when i just shut down
there are times when i just shut down

LET'S PLAY MORTUARY DRESS UP 2024

01 Hello Mother Hello Father I'm Dead
the two faced man with the skeleton head
is pointing a finger at me
the lake of fire that drowns my skin
swallows every part of me
the precipice from which i jumped
seems a thousand years ago
the eyes i had when i could see
i'll never have again
hello mother hello father i'm dead
hello mother hello father i'm dead
the empty room is full of life it slashes violently
the toxic fog makes me want to wretch
but there's nothing inside of me
this world is neither good or bad it has no agency
i pull back my hands from grasping gloves
trying to bury me
hello mother hello father i'm dead
hello mother hello father i'm dead
hello mother hello father i'm dead
hello mother hello father i'm dead
hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello
hello mother hello father i'm dead
hello mother hello father i'm dead
hello mother hello father i'm dead
hello mother hello father i'm dead

02 You Minus Me
jump tell me how high
jump tell me when i jump
you don't need to push, push me
i want to cut without razors
cut this mortal being
cut you don't need to
i can do this i want to
i fear monotony in absolute symmetry
this penetrating oblivion
you minus me
i fear monotony in absolute symmetry
this penetrating oblivion
you minus me
touch go ahead and touch
call me with a touch
you don't need to stop, stop me
i want to cut without razors
cut this mortal being
cut you don't need to
but i can do this i want to
i fear monotony in absolute symmetry
this penetrating oblivion
you minus me
i fear monotony in absolute symmetry
this penetrating oblivion
you minus me
i fear monotony in absolute symmetry
this penetrating oblivion
you minus me

03 Smashed Upon a Reef Together
who do i think i'd like to be forever?
would you choose to die with me forever?
what do i think will tether us together?
smashed upon a reef drowning together
in this room voices attack they scramble in my head
from the floor boards through the cracks
a haunting chorus of the dead
who do i think i'd like to be forever?
would you choose to die with me forever?
what do i think will tether us together?
smashed upon a reef drowning together

04 Let's Play Mortuary Dress Up
i will search for you through muddy trenches
i will shut your eyes and close your mouth
there is nothing left standing upright
the dead silence drops on moon dead ground
let's play let's play let's play mortuary dress up mortuary
pretend that the killing isn't happening
it's easier to play at
i will search for her through acrid smoke veils
my two hands are ripped on shattered glass
let's play let's play let's play mortuary dress up mortuary
pretend that the killing isn't happening
it's easier to play at
let's all just play it's miles away let's all just play it's miles away
let's all just play it's miles away let's all just play it's miles away
let's all just play it's miles away let's all just play it's miles away
let's play let's play let's play mortuary dress up mortuary
let's all just play it's miles away let's all just play it's miles away
let's all just play it's miles away let's all just play it's miles away
let's all just play it's miles away let's all just play it's miles away
let's all just play it's miles away let's all just play it's miles away
let's all just play it's miles away let's all just play it's miles away
let's all just play it's miles away let's all just play it's miles away

SHEENA WAS A PUNK ROCKER (SHE'S A FAN) 2024

sheena was a punk rocker
sheena was a punk rocker
you were the song you wore it well
it was your past it was your time it was your time
show me every stitch you wore
show me every uniform
it was your past it was your time
it was your past i want
i want you back in life again
coursing blood again
i want you in your gloom again
needles tear my skin again
sheena was a punk rocker
sheena was a punk rocker
you were the song you wore it well
it was your past it was your time it was your time
i want you back in life again
coursing blood again
i want you in your gloom again
needles tear my skin again
in your perfect gloom
no outsiders room
nothing needs be said
victim to 'bela lugosi's dead'
in your perfect gloom
no outsiders room
nothing needs be said
victim to bela la...
victim to bela la...
victim to bela la...
victim to bela lugosi's dead

BRING ME DECAY (2023)

01 Bring Me Decay
Sugar sweet memories enter me
They bring me decay and eat through me
Sugar sweet memories enter me
They bring me decay and eat through me
It makes me sick I can no more swallow
The damage inside makes me thin and hollow
I stand tall but my front is backward
And I am tired of the platitudes that I've heard
At me at me at me
They exit the mouths of dogma believers
And I side step to evade their make believe fevers
all their make believe fevers their make believe fevers
their make believe fevers their make believe fevers
Sugar sweet memories enter me
They bring me decay and eat through me
Sugar sweet memories enter me
They bring me decay and eat through me

02 I Love In Mono
I love in mono I love in mono
I love in mono I love in mono
No more symphony of voices
No choir to call my own
In this world of isolation
I find myself alone
I love in mono
I love in mono in this dystopian zone
I love in mono and I prefer to be all alone
I love in mono hard cold steel
I love in mono
Where nothing is right and nothing feels quite real
No more symphony of voices
No choir to call my own
In this world of isolation
I find myself alone
I love in mono I love in mono
I love in mono hard cold steel
I love in mono
Where nothing feels right nothing feels this real
Feels this real
I love in mono I love in mono
I love in mono I love in mono
I love in mono I love in mono

IN HER SOLITUDE (2023)

in her solitude
she will do anything
just to feel something new
in her solitude
i love you i love you i love you i love you
i love you i hate you i hate you i hate you
i hate me i hate me i hate me
how i loved you
i love you i love you i love you i love you
i love you i hate you i hate you i hate me
i hate me i hate me i hate me
how i loved you
in my attitude
i can feel every cut
as if the razor is new
in my attitude
i loved you i love you i love you i love you
i love you i hate you i hate you i hate me
i hate me i hate me i hate me
how i loved you
i loved you i love you i love you i love you
i love you i hate you i hate you i hate me
i hate me i hate me i hate me
how i loved you

TRANSPARENT IN BLACK (2023)

01 She's a Fan
in your perfect gloom no outsiders room
nothing needs be said victim to 'bela lugosi's dead'
she's a fan she's a fan she's a fan she's a fan
she's a fan she's a fan in the moon dead night
macabre dark wave delight nothing needs be said
victim to 'bela lugosi's dead'
she's a fan she's a fan she's a fan she's a fan
she's a fan she's a fan

02 Transparent In Black
transparent in black thin crepe thin lips
i watch her look it breaks my skin
embossed with grit from graveyard nights
the sub earth vault the shadowed moon
transparent in black transparent in black
i love you i love you i love you
i love you i hate you i hate me
i hate you i hate me how i love you,
i love you i love you i love you
i love you i hate you i hate me
i hate you i hate me how i love you
transparent in black a fallen veil
thin as the night black heart travails
her hollow eyes live underground
my broken mind my parched dry mouth
i love you i love you i love you
i love you i hate you i hate me
i hate you i hate me how i love you,
i love you i love you i love you
i love you i hate you i hate me
i hate you i hate me how i love you

03 Escape from Myself
in the shadows of the dead thoughts
and haunting repressions
i can not escape from myself
like blood on the soft wing of a hummingbird
i can not escape from myself
there is a hole where i do not look down in
there is a hole that i do not look down in
and it's pulling me in
and it's pulling me in
and it's pulling me down
it's pulling me down
the quiet death of forever once was
is well gone
i can not escape from myself
i can not escape from myself

04 Where Do I Go?
there are spiders on the wall
and the mirror is milky
the paint is thin
where do i go where do i go where do i go?
where do i go to sleep tonight?
there's decay inside my vault
and the light is black and dirty
the air is dead
where do i go where do i go where do i go?
where do i go to sleep tonight?
where do i go where do i go where do i go?

THE DARKSIDE OF THE MOON (2023)

01 The Darkside of the Moon
i, look out through my window to the moon
the blood red moon of a million slaughtered hearts
i press my head to the speakers and i fly
she, her dazzling hair of red falls on her eyes
the morning of that day still cuts like glass
i press my head to the speakers and i fly
i will look for you on the darkside of the moon
i will look for you on the darkside of the moon
we, talked of everything including death
and finally the abstract became fact
i press my head to the speakers and i fly
i will look for you on the darkside of the moon
i will look for you on the darkside of the moon

02 One More Hour
if i had one more day
if i had one more hour
to say all the things i should have
to thank you for sharing my life
if i had one more day
i would sit in your shadow
and ask of you what do you say
shall we start this whole thing over?
if i had one more day
if i had one more hour

CREPE GOTH GODDESS (2023)

chain gang laughter walls of wailing
bouncing voices screwed up faces
every neuron in my brain is screaming stop
i have taken all that's given
every hero every villain
one step forward two steps back
i dress to die in mourning black
you're still my crepe black goddess
so imperfect i love you
you're still my crepe goth goddess
unchallenged i love you i love you
glitching noises flashing sirens
flaming mouths moronic idols
every neuron in my brain is screaming stop
i have taken all that's given
every hero every villain
one step forward two steps back
i dress to die in mourning black
you're still my crepe black goddess
so imperfect i love you
you're still my crepe goth goddess
unchallenged i love you i love you

THE BEAUTIFUL DEAD (2023)

01 The Beautiful Dead
in the face of the beautiful dead
a consumptive smile has no place
get it done make it quick
i won't clutch for my better day my better day
if i appear so tragic on the page it's exorcism
if i awake with razors in my hands
don't soothe or touch me
the iron bit of destiny leads me away
into another fallacy for today
stupid grab make it quick
i won't grasp for a sharper day a sharper day
if i appear so tragic on the page it's exorcism
if i awake with razors in my hands
don't soothe or touch me

02 Blood
rose red drops of blood
a sage offering to you
no one cares less the world's just me and you
don't go away don't go so soon
i'll give you every drop i have
i'll give you all the blood you need
just hold your arms out to receive it
i'll give you every drop i have
i'll give you all the blood you crave
just hold your veins out to receive me
borrowed books and time
i'm longing for release
no one knows us
the world's just here for me and you
don't go away don't go so soon
i'll give you every drop i have
i'll give you all the blood you need
just hold your arms out to receive it
i'll give you every drop i have
i'll give you all the blood you crave
just hold your veins out to receive me

03 I Want You Inside My Skin
shipwrecked on an astro shore
beneath the cobwebbed sky
desperate fingers claw away
the spiders from my eyes
the blood of roses trickles down
into a bone dry dirt
the half moon like a phantom glows
i cause myself to hurt
i want you inside my skin
i want you inside my skin i want you i want you
i want you inside my skin
i want you inside my skin i want you i want you
feeling like a destitute
with rashes on my eyes
open flesh that bears the cold
an affliction that won't die
i want you inside my skin
i want you inside my skin i want you i want you
i want you inside my skin
i want you inside my skin i want you i want you

04 Carnival
this is a carnival but i'm not laughing
the crowds look ugly and they're thick
the atmosphere of human candy
makes my senses sugar sick
and i can no longer look at the world and care
the way i once used to do
and i can no longer look at the world and care
like the way i was when i was with you
this war is going on forever
why not just kill ourselves & be done
it cannot happen here but it's here
as my atoms float around the sun
and i can no longer look at the world and care
the way i once used to do
and i can no longer look at the world and care
like the way i was when i was with you
and i can no longer look at the world and care
the way i once used to do
and i can no longer look at the world and care
i've checked out of my motel room

SILENCE IS NOISE (2023)

silence is full of noise the sound of nothing is still noise
in my head the noise of emptiness is loud
in my head growing louder the further it goes
i'm not alive and i'm not dead and she's not here
i'm not alive and i'm not dead and she's not here
sallow skin of night we walk in silence in the dead of night
in my head i walk with ghosts i cannot touch
in my head the noise of night's consuming me
i'm not alive and i'm not dead and she's not here
i'm not alive and i'm not dead and she's not here
she's not here

BLACK DANCE DAYS (2023)

01 Depress Me
what waits on the other side of silence
when all expectations die?
nihilistic smash up metal on the concrete
lifeless embalment of life's collected works
depress me depress me
who waits on the other side of violence?
this harm no one wants to touch
nihilistic smash up head upon the concrete
no looking back to heroes or life's most precious works
depress me (you, you) depress me (you, you)

02 You Loved Me
you loved me
you loved me
you loved me
you, if i think of you
i'll think nothing but you
if i think of you
i'll think nothing but you
you loved me
you loved me
you loved me
if i think of you
i'll think nothing but you
if i think of you
i'll think nothing but you

03 Your Stabbing Silence Is Murder
your stabbing silence is murder
your stabbing silence is murder
she plays dark for me
every time she sees me longing
she plays dark for me
every time my eyes start bleeding
your stabbing silence is murder
your stabbing silence is murder
she plays dark for me
every time she sees me longing
she plays dark for me
stabbing silence makes my eyes bleed
your stabbing silence is murder
your stabbing silence is murder
your stabbing silence
your stabbing silence

04 Lie With You
silence bruises morning's jolt me
fallow days fail to resolve me
leave me be
i want to lie with you
shadows move when i'm not watching
frozen life is not worth keeping
leave it be
i want to lie with you
siren calls me into water
return me to the womb as water
all i care is
i want to lie with you
i want to lie with you

THESE DAYS ARE THE DARKEST (2023)

01 Diazapam With Milk
diazapam with milk and the milk i do not drink
but the pill is my wall the wall i lean upon
it helps me to rest where my brain cells feel the best
it shuts down the day and pulls me in from the edge
i hate lollipop happiness i'd rather listen to Low than Let's Dance
let's all dress in black let's all dress in black
let's all dance in black eyeliner black
diazapam with milk and the milk i do not drink
but the pill is my wall the wall i lean upon
it helps me to rest where my brain cells feel the best
it shuts down the day and pulls mein from the edge
diazapam with milk and the milk i do not drink
diazapam with milk and the milk i do not drink
drink drink drink drink drink

02 Gorgon
your gorgon hair your venom eyes
your coquette grin your sulfur taste
you kill yourself and i'm, i'm dead inside
your gorgon hair you're bent on pain
matters not much you're a foregone bride
you kill yourself and i'm, dead inside
drained and out of sleep a smote and broken heap
drained and out of sleep a smote and broken heap

03 Love Me To Death
the living skin in almost dead
dullness has become nothing to fear
there's places were i do not go
traces of somebody else's life left behind
love me to death love me to death
there is a line i cannot cross
where she's concerned she's second to none
i fly up to the firmament just to touch her face
but there's no one there just poison air i fall i fail i crash
love me to death love me to death

04 Mausoleum
come july i will leave you
and in august you'll be gone
suck the poison from the Nightshade
my favourite tonic of them all
i will love you in the morning
i will dress you when you're torn
i'll breathe life into your shadow
and we'll walk right through this wall
come tomorrow i will leave you
and today i know is gone
in this mausoleum darkness
i crawl beneath the bedroom floor
i will love you in the morning
i will dress you when you're torn
i'll breathe life into your shadow
and we'll walk right through this wall
i will love you in the morning
i will dress you when you're torn
i'll breathe life into your shadow
and we'll walk right through this wall

NEGATIVE PLUS (2023)

01 Negative
every face i see will die and every memory through my eyes will end with me
every bridge comes to an end and every lover foe or friend will end with me
i will go away don't fret and i'll no longer pose a threat to your plus mind
sometimes a weight's an overload a rupture tears apart the road ahead of me
tired and tired and tired i feel i no longer care if i reveal how void i am
it's so hard to maintain a front i now feel free to lose the brunt that's weighed on me
i will go away don't fret and i'll no longer pose a threat to your plus mind
sometimes a weight's an overload a rupture tears apart the road ahead of me

02 Please Come Home
I without you an equation that is less than minus zero
i don't like to shut my eyes too long there are dreams i don't ever want to relive
please come home i don't wish to keep you forever
just please come home i don't wish to wait here forever
i don't care to wait until tomorrow, tomorrow's promise often lies
the sky is clear i can see for miles and miles around me
the sky feels blue i prefer to feel you beside me
an open wound keeps us from healing broken skin and poison cells within
please come home i don't wish to own you forever
just please come home please come home just please please come home
just please please come home please please please come home
please please please come home

03 Charlotte And The Plague
in the year of 1327
i curse my eyes when i see dead heaven
the black death eats away at bodies life squeezed out of breath
blood squeezed out of stone sickly decay
it's Charlotte i bury today
in the year of 1327
from the North York moors to Jurassic Devon
all along the watch tower the reaper whispers name by name
a dust storm blows my way and wind brings decay
it's Charlotte i bury today

04 I Keep A Photo Of You
I keep a photo i keep a photo of you
a frozen moment a frozen moment of you
these memories are bitter sweet to me
these memories are bitter sweet to me
i look at your face i look at your face with me
a distant visage a fading visage with me
these memories are bitter sweet to me
these memories are bitter sweet to me
i keep a photo i keep a photo of you

05 Your Death Kiss
love is you love is me
and if it ends let it be
i just can't think like this
i won't forget your death kiss
i can't even compromise just to feel good
oyster grey alice blue
flat colours in my room
doleful shapes on the wall
this game doesn't interest me at all
i can't even compromise just to feel good
love is you love is me
and if it ends let it be
i just can't think like this
i won't forget your death kiss
i can't even compromise just to feel good

06 The Sedative Is Wearing Off
the sedative is wearing off
and clarity feels sharp
a stranger's voice speaks in my head
i recognize as mine
talk and talk and talk and talk
and talk and talk to me do it now
talk and talk and talk and talk
and talk and talk to me do it now
the sedative is wearing off
it's ugly when there's light
a drop of blood upon an eyelid
a love a stain a blot a ruin
talk and talk and talk and talk
and talk and talk to me do it now
talk and talk and talk and talk
and talk and talk to me do it now

07 Now Or Never
It's now it's now or never
to lose this weight and tether
to free my hands to free my head
to forgive the mess i've said
regrets are useless time ill spent
i'd rather end up nowhere with you
than to be somewhere without you
and i'd rather tell out loud
the things i've done which i'm not proud
than to think that you don't love me
i don't care if I'm nowhere with you
i'm in pain to be somewhere with out you
and each morning is the same
everything seems drab and plain
and i bore you to go on and on
it's now it's now or never
to let go of this weight and tether
now or never now or never
it's now it's now or never

08 Without You
i walk up to your eyelids and lift your torpid head
i look upon your white face i want to make you care
the streets are full of petrol you can smell it in the air
like incense in a church nave this is the world in which we stand
this is the world in which we stand
without you without you without you without you
without you without you without you without you
your walk is crestfallen and gravity sucks your eyes
in a belladonna tee shirt i want to make you care
the street continues humming past an alcove of despair
we walk up to a cross road this is the world in which we stand
this the world in which we stand
without you without you without you without you
without you without you without you without you

09 Some Of Us Are Like This
why would there be love
when there is nothing here but greyness?
i have no faith in hope and i don't hope for faith
some of us are like this
cross the great divide the affirmation of acceptance
i don't hope for faith and i have no faith in hope
some of us are like this
why should there be love
when i don't care for its fulfillment?
i'm alright come what may i'm in my place of cold warmth
some of us are like this

10 Something I Can't Kill
i do not believe in death i won't be around to know i'm gone
everything has beauty but not everyone can see perfection's false
let me see you when you're near you are something i can't kill
let me see you when you're near you are something i can't kill
such a sense of emptiness an absence of something crucial missing
from still life to a jumper's death it's now all streamed and boring me to death
let me see you when you're near you are something i can't kill
let me see you when you're near you are something i can't kill

11 Seriously Myriam
seriously Myriam take off your amulet if you love me
and die for me i'm already gone
seriously Myriam your hemlock mouth is moist and earthy
your body's warm i'm waiting for you
on a fine Mediterranean marble
i want to see you see you laid out for me
i'm already gone my love i want to see you see you now
seriously Myriam give to me everything you have to give i want it all
and we'll both be gone
on a fine Mediterranean marble
i want to see you see you laid out for me
i'm already gone my love i want to see you see you now

12 Time Wears A Poker Face
why don't you come, stay i'll promise you anything
why don't you please stay i'm desperate for anything
it's got to be tonight it's got to be tonight
tomorrow may not rise under pandemic skies
time wears a poker face it will promise you anything
let's meet in the same place for now it means everything
it's got to be tonight it's got to be tonight
tomorrow may not rise under pandemic skies
take away my love what do i have?
take away your love what i have?

13 Rachel's Coming Home
Rachel's coming home and i'll make the room for her
Rachel's coming home i'll fix the room for her
the way she likes it black as the sky
the way she likes it black as the sky
Rachel's coming home i'll strip down all the walls
Rachel's coming home i'll prepare all the walls
and i'll paint them black for her to match her eyes
yes i'll paint them black for her black as the sky
Rachel's coming home Rachel's coming home tonight

14 The Moon Is Red
do you remember the first time?
yes i remember the first time
do you remember the first time do?
and now my brain gets tired
the machine inside breaks down
and now my brain gets tired
the machine inside breaks down
remembering you
and the moon is red blood drops on my head
and everyone who dies cut up by the stars in the sky in the sky
and the moon is red blood drops on my head
and everyone who dies cut up by the stars in the sky in the sky
do you remember the first time?
yes i remember the first time
do you remember the first time do?

CLEOPATRA (I DON'T LOVE YOU)

love lies cut in the busy street in the busy rain,
blood runs in streams pouring like champagne
i don't love you i don't love you i don't love you or want you here
i don't love you i don't love you i don't love you or want you here
ice melts on the floor the winter is inside i've lived and i have died
i don't love you i don't love you i don't love you or want you here
i don't love you i don't love you i don't love you or want you here
cleopatra, for her amusement stuck a golden needle in her slave girl's breast
you're not you're not as bad as that
looks that wear no face that bother me in sleep
you have nothing, you have nothing i care to keep
i don't love you i don't love you i don't love you or want you here
i don't love you i don't love you i don't love you or want you here
cleopatra, you're not, you're not as bad as that

BOYS BOYS BOYS   (2023)

boys, I think of boys, I think of the boys prostrate at your feet
boys, I think of boys, I think of the boys prostrate at your feet
mmm my goddess, my crucified goddess
I want to be in your arms again
I remember as if yesterday  a thousand tears ago
we tripped over Greek ruins a chorus of tragedy surrounds us
but it was so rich to be alive when everybody loved you
boys, I think of boys, I think of the boys prostrate at your feet
mmm my goddess, my crucified goddess
I'm reading every book you read
even Plato to murder time classic Russian literature
we tripped over Greek ruins a chorus of tragedy surrounds us
but it was so rich to be alive when everybody loved you
boys, I think of boys, I think of the boys prostrate at your feet,
my goddess, my crucified goddess
boys, boys boys, prostrate at your feet
boys, boys boys, prostrate at your feet

HUG ME TILL YOU DRUG ME (2023)

hug me till you drug me kiss me till i'm in a coma
your cold mouth of winter, tombstone grey
the smell of mortuary flowers beneath the sulphur skies
butter yellow sun, tired cadaverous eyes
honey heavy due of slumber honey heavy due of slumber
honey heavy due of slumber honey heavy due of slumber
hug me till you drug me kiss me till i'm in a coma
your Kodac eyes snap shut tight on my drumbeat heart
the smell of mortuary flowers beneath the sulphur skies
butter yellow sun drops, look into my eyes
honey heavy due of slumber honey heavy due of slumber
honey heavy due of slumber honey heavy due of slumber
connect with me connect, connect with me connect connect with me connect, connect with me connect

PUT YOUR LIPS ON MY LIPS   (2022)

01 Kiss, Kiss, Kiss
your clever eyes your knowing face I find in there my hiding place
call me by name circle my brain sleep in me sleep in me
kiss kiss kiss the ghost inside me kiss kiss kiss you walk inside me kiss kiss kiss
kiss kiss kiss your voice inside me kiss kiss kiss your strength to hold me kiss kiss kiss me
my trembling eyes my solemn face i look at me standing in your place
call me by name circle my brain sleep in me sleep in me
kiss kiss kiss the ghost inside me kiss kiss kiss you walk inside me kiss kiss kiss kiss me
kiss kiss kiss your voice inside me kiss kiss kiss your strength to hold me kiss kiss kiss me

02 Cleopatra (I Don't Love You)
love lies cut in the busy street in the busy rain, blood runs in streams pouring like champagne
i don't love you i don't love you i don't love you or want you here
i don't love you i don't love you i don't love you or want you here
ice melts on the floor the winter is inside i've lived and i have died
i don't love you i don't love you i don't love you or want you here
i don't love you i don't love you i don't love you or want you here
cleopatra, for her amusement stuck a golden needle in her slave girl's breast
you're not you're not as bad as that
looks that wear no face that bother me in sleep you have nothing, you have nothing i care to keep
i don't love you i don't love you i don't love you or want you here
i don't love you i don't love you i don't love you or want you here
cleopatra, you're not, you're not as bad as that

03 Formed By Your Hand
i just like to see i just like to see i just like to see the words formed by your hand
i just found a letter it didn't make much sense to me i don't care i just like to see the words formed by your hand
words of obscure meaning words on printed paper i just like to see the words formed by your hand
i just like to see i just like to see i just like to see the words formed by your hand
i just found a letter your writing could be hard to read it's of no concern i just like to see the words formed by your hand
i just like to see i just like to see i just like to see
i remember my girlfriend i remember my best friend i remember my woman i remember my wife i remember you
i just like to see the words formed by your hand

04 This Happy Life
this happy life now that your gone my sanguine face a dress to put on
kiss me in darkness kiss me at night's rest kiss me in our room it's still here for you
with every living thing i bury it alive to watch it come back to me
and if it's really love then let it be complete come back to me for keeps
midnight it is window moon the wicker chair begins to move
kiss me in darkness kiss me at night's rest kiss me in our room it's still here for you
with every living thing i bury it alive to watch it come back to me
and if it's really love then let it be complete come back to me for keeps

05 Put Your Lips On My Lips
put your lips on my lips surrender your eyes look at me whenever you think it’s your time to die
put your lips on my lips so please just stay while the sky outside is blue in the dark in the void i die too
put my face on your face your pallor is worn the room is close whenever you think its your time to die
put my lips on your lips so please just stay while the sky outside is blue in the dark in the void i die too
outside the day gives no quarter the sun is blocked by black flags of merciless clouds
put my lips on your lips put my lips on your lips

06 Yes She Does
cold earth cold sky cold fire cold eyes she loves me she loves me yes she does
she loves me she loves me yes she does
closed door closed room no warmth no word she loves me she loves me yes she does
she loves me she loves me yes she does
just like a drowning man i hang tight to belief i have nothing left
she loves me she loves me yes she does she loves me she loves me yes she does

07 The Greatest Lie
i thought that i could learn to smile without you i thought that i could learn to laugh without you
i thought i could express my hate for you but now i know i doubt this too all this too
i don’t want you I don’t need you is this the greatest lie i ever told you?
i don’t want you I don’t need you is this the greatest lie i ever told you?
i thought that i could learn to love without you how can i ever learn to live, live without you?
i don’t want you I don’t need you is this the greatest lie i ever told you?
i don’t want you i don’t want you is this the greatest lie i ever told you?
the greatest lie the greatest lie i told you

08 Beneath The Funeral Skies
beneath the funeral skies the party dances one and twenty souls
with skeleton eyes and murdered hearts false or true smoke and ice dust and earth i wait for night
i do promise to love you after death do us part i do promise to love you after death do us part
the peasant girl from Domrémy you are not her and i am not your saviour
i'll gather the moss i'll stay right here whisper sounds silent words stir the air i wait for night
i do promise to love you after death do us part i do promise to love you after death do us part
i will dig beneath the dirt with my rigid fingers you and i are not unique history repeats and lingers
beneath the funeral skies beneath the funeral skies

09 Unborn
if i said i'm sorry would you understand if i said i could not i'd not be a lover or friend
i walk in winter i walk inside this storm my brain fever lingers i want something to feel unborn
you said it will soon be over please find someone new
i said please don't speak about this i would rather hold and follow you
i will freeze in winter i will freeze inside this storm my brain fever lingers i want something to feel unborn
i walk in winter i walk inside this storm i walk in winter i walk inside this storm
i want something to feel unborn i want something to feel unborn

10 Halfway Cross The Sky
a pill for the night it helps me to sleep i see your face upon the glass the dark window the empty street
today i’m on earth tomorrow i’m gone i’ll follow you halfway cross the sky
the darkness of space surrender my world to follow you halfway cross the sky
i feel the guilt alive and alone when it’s always been the two of us why you and not me why me and not you
today i’m on earth tomorrow i’m gone i’ll follow you halfway cross the sky
the darkness of space surrender my world to follow you halfway cross the sky today i’m on earth tomorrow i’m gone
i’ll follow you halfway cross the sky

11 Leave Something For Me (bonus track Bandcamp)
she left her presence in every room of this house
she left her future for me to do what i care
so change everything in any way you want
just leave something for me as it was
paint every wall in colours you desire
just leave something for me as it was
she's here beside me when familiar life carries on
so change everything in any way you want
just leave something for me as it was
paint every wall in colours you desire
just leave something for me as it was

All songs G Pappas, Track 7 G Pappas/D Diluca c.2022

COLD WAR POP (2021)

01 Cold War Pop
in the distance from a building on a level near the top i can hear someone playing cold war pop
in the distance from a building on a level near the top i can hear someone playing cold war pop
i’m dressed like a futuristic nomad, dressed like the last man alive
dressed like a futuristic nomad, dressed like the last man alive
in the distance from a building on a level near the top i can hear someone playing cold war pop
in the distance from a building on a level near the top i can hear someone playing cold war pop
i’m fixed from my head dress to my makeup, fixed with my Checkpoint Charlie eyes
in the distance from a building on a level near the top i can hear someone playing cold war pop
in the distance from a building on a level near the top i can hear someone playing cold war pop

02 My Machine
this is my machine my fingers curl around her circuitry this is my machine her warm voltage travels to my knees
this is my machine i will put her into gear her rhythm murmurs in my ear i love my machine i love my machine
this is my machine i will put her into gear her rhythm murmurs in my ear i love my machine i love my machine
this is my machine i have never wanted more than this, this is my machine alone and quiet inside my room
i don’t have to leave my room i have all i need i have all i need she is my machine she is my machine she is my machine

03 Someone With Your Name
if i say i love you please promise me you won’t feel sick please promise me you won’t feel like i do
if i shred my fingernails don’t promise me i’ll be ok just promise me you won’t feel like i do
i don’t care for anyone except for someone with your name except for someone with your name
except for someone with your name except for someone with your name
if i darken up the room please don’t mock what i do for you please promise me you won’t feel like i do
i don’t care for anyone except for someone with your name except for someone with your name
except for someone with your name except for someone with your name
i don’t care for anyone i don’t care for anyone except for someone with your name except for someone with your name
except for someone with your name except for someone with your name

04 I Say I Do But
i say i do but i don’t realize i say i do but i don’t realize,
i pick a flower and put it inside your hand i pick a flower and put it inside your hand, only sometimes i will see the things not right for me only sometimes i will see the things not right for me,
there is something that i want to say doesn’t happen any other day
i pick a flower and put it inside your hand, i say i do but i don’t realize i say i do but i don’t realize ,
only sometimes i will see the things not right for me only sometimes i will see the things not right for me
there is something that i want to say doesn’t happen any other day
i say i do but i don’t realize i say i do but i don’t realize

05 West Berlin Or Die Trying
if we hurry we may still make the last run home the guards will sleeping or they just maybe drunk
let us not be afraid of the lights or the barbed wire killers tonight, i love you i won’t let these be the last words you hear
i love you i won’t let these be the last words you hear, so let’s just do it we can still make the last run home
if the guards will be sleeping if the guards are drunk let us not be afraid of the lights or the barbed wire killers tonight
we have to go tonight we have to run tonight before we lose our nerve
we have to go tonight we have to run tonight before we lose our nerve
i love you i won’t let these be the last words you hear

06 Charlie Bravo Safehouse (Ost Berlin)
she was a stranger till i spoke her name she wore a hooded fleece to conceal her face
the train had brought here to Alexanderplatz on this grim grey cold war afternoon
charlie bravo safehouse ost berlin charlie bravo safehouse ost berlin
she was a stranger with a nervous twitch her body flinched each time i moved in close
her footsteps quickened i understood her haste on this grim grey cold war afternoon
charlie bravo safehouse ost berlin charlie bravo safehouse ost berlin
she was a refugee without a home she had been living close on a razor’s edge
a stowaway to Alexanderplatz on this grim grey cold war afternoon
charlie bravo safehouse ost berlin charlie bravo safehouse ost berlin charlie bravo safehouse ost berlin

07 Fad Gadget
i'm with my fad gadget i hold it in my hands it is glued to my brain
and i don't want to face anyone i don't want to engage anyone i just want my, fad gadget i just want my, my fad gadget
it lights me up fad gadget i can turn it on or off shape it anyway i want and yes i can be anonymous yeah
right behind my vpn i just want my, fad gadget i just want my, my fad gadget
there’s only one thing i need to own and that's my bubble gum coloured smart phone
there’s only one thing i need to own and that's my bubble gum coloured smart phone
i feel post human with my fad gadget i feel post human with my fad gadget
there’s only one thing i need to own and that's my bubble gum coloured smart phone
there’s only one thing i need to own and that's my bubble gum coloured smart phone

08 Shooting Of A Bricklayer
grey is the colour of concrete grey is the colour of my wall so tell me how do i get out of here alive
how do i get out of here alive grey is the colour of my wall
even the Death Strip looks promising from here even the Death Strip looks promising from here
it’s surely suicide but i may not care, crucified upon the Wall crucify me on the Wall i oh i’m already there
freedom to think is a thought crime freedom to think is not mine tell me how do i get out of here alive
even the Death Strip looks promising from here even the Death Strip looks promising from here
it’s surely suicide but i may not care, crucified upon the Wall crucify me on the Wall i oh i’m already there

09 I'm In Love With CWSP
from Dusseldorf to Berlin from Berlin to London an electrical language other worldly and cold
the face of machines erratic and new we feel it let’s blitz it we feel it let’s blitz it
i’m in love with silhouettes in vinyl black skirts in starched red shirts i’m in love with electrical language
i’m in love with cold war synth-pop
from Kraftwerk to Bowie on the Trans-Europe Express an electrical language controlled with voltage
post human machines metronomic new men we feel it let’s blitz it we feel it let’s blitz it
i’m in love with silhouettes in vinyl black skirts in starched red shirts i’m in love with electrical language
i’m in love with cold war synth-pop

10 I Might As Well Be Dead
the walls need painting the sink is full of last week’s food she is gone and i don’t care any more any less
she is gone she is gone i might as well be dead cause she is gone she is gone she is gone i might as well be dead cause she is gone, she is gone and i don’t care any more any less she is gone she is gone i might as well be dead cause she is gone

All songs by G Pappas. c.2021

NEW ROMANCE: 1984 (2020)

01 The Rubber Room
Nothing to do I have a drink
Feeling sad I have another
After a few I feel happy
But I'm heading straight for the rubber room
Strange as I feel feeling this way
I'm moving inside the rubber room
Into the walls I go a-bouncing
I've paid my money where's my red balloon?
Strange as I feel feeling this way
I'm moving inside the rubber room
Nothing to do I cut my hair
Feeling sad I hurt my body
And after awhile I feel nothing
I'm heading straight for the rubber room
Strange as I feel feeling this way
I'm moving inside the rubber room
the rubber room the rubber room

02 She Looks A Lot Like Martin Gore From 1984
Red is the colour of her room, translucent
Her lips the blackest hue of blue, translucent
Her sculpted hair her sculpted face
Her flying saucer eyes
Her leather skirt her coy girl flirt
She's a girl and she's a boy
She looks a lot like Martin Gore from 1984
She looks a lot like Martin Gore from 1984
She drinks enough to make her sick
Before she's anyone's
She thinks enough to bruise her skin
She won't be anyone's
Her sculpted hair her sculpted face
Her flying saucer eyes
Her leather skirt her coy girl flirt
She's a girl and she's a boy
She looks a lot like Martin Gore from 1984
She looks a lot like Martin Gore from 1984
She walks between the silhouettes in shadows
Collecting vapour men as friends in shadows
Her sculpted hair her sculpted face
Her flying saucer eyes
Her leather skirt her coy girl flirt
She's a girl and she's a boy
She looks a lot like Martin Gore from 1984
She looks a lot like Martin Gore from 1984
She looks a lot like Martin Gore from 1984

03 She's Glass
She's glass
Cuts my heart cuts my face
Shard of glass pure and clear
She cuts lines in flesh lines them up
She's glass she's glass
How do I stop bleeding for her?
How do I stop?
How do I stop bleeding for her?
How do I stop bleeding for her?
She's glass
Razor eyes razor touch
Shattered glass pure and clear
She cuts lines in flesh lines them up
She's glass she's glass
How do I stop bleeding for her?
How do I stop?
How do I stop bleeding for her?
Bleeding for her bleeding for her
Bleeding for her bleeding for her

04 When The Wind Blows Mary
When all was lost I reached
I reached for the sleeping pills
I thought of it all and fell into despair
When the wind blows when the wind blows
When the wind blows when the wind blows
My head is dulled my vision's a milky sea
The shadows in the wind walk right through me
When the wind blows when the wind blows
When the wind blows when the wind blows
When the wind blows when the wind blows
When the wind blows when the wind blows
And the wind cries Mary and the wind cries Mary
And the wind cries Mary and the wind cries Mary
And the wind cries Mary and the wind cries Mary

05 Darkroom Sanctuary
Hold me up to the light and can you read my face?
All the cracks and lines tomorrow will not erase
Follow me to the darkroom sanctuary
Bring me out after dark, I feel less alone
If I can't have what I want I'll make pretend I don't need
Follow me to the darkroom sanctuary
Her candle burns in the night I watch it across the street
If I can't have who I want I'll make pretend I don't need
Follow me to the darkroom sanctuary
Hold me up to the light and you can read my face
If I can't have who I want I'll make pretend I don't need
Follow me to the darkroom sanctuary
Follow me to the darkroom sanctuary

06 She Lives In Tunnels
Her eyes hurt from exposure to the day
Her skin blistered and began to flay
She may be the last person left alive
In this the year of 2025
She lives in tunnels she lives in tunnels
The military built a city underground
A nuclear strikes was deemed reasonable and sound
In preparation they had a hundred years of food
And there were provisions for every kind of mood
She lives in tunnels she lives in tunnels
Now the earth's surface is a radioactive sewer
All the good folks died and fauna and flora fried
She lives in tunnels without another human sound
She kills her time searching hoping for another being to be found
She lives in tunnels she lives in tunnels
She lives in tunnels she lives in tunnels

07 Dreams Of A Boy
Take off your blue dress and put down the phone
I wish for nothing tonight except for you in my sight
Wash off your dolls face and move to the light
I care for nothing tonight except for you in my sight
Dreams of a boy somehow never come true
Dreams of a boy somehow never come
Move to your window my eyes will follow you
I wish for no more tonight except for you in my sight
Dreams of a boy somehow never come true
Dreams of a boy somehow never come
I never approached her I would never dare
I watched her glimpses from distant and close vantages
She was such a swinger then it was 1982
The out of this world synthesizers padded her movements
Remember dreams of dreams of dreams of
Remember dreams of dreams of a boy

08 Stay Away From The Lollipop Clown
The lollipop clown stalks the street
The lollipop clown hands out treats
His sad eyed face makes children weep
And he comes for them in their sleep
Stay away from the lollipop clown
Stay away from the lollipop clown
The lollipop clown in battered shoes
Makes nursery rhymes from chain gang blues
Got a spider's web for things to keep
And he comes for children in their sleep
Stay away from the lollipop clown
Stay away from the lollipop clown
The lollipop clown has a leery smile
In colours to attract sub juveniles
Got a spider's web for things to keep
And he comes for children in their sleep
Stay away from the lollipop clown
Stay away from the lollipop clown
Stay away from the lollipop clown
Stay away from the lollipop clown
Spider's web he'll put you in a spider's web
Spider's web he'll put you in a spider's web

09 It Came From Outer Space
There are lights in the sky and my car has stalled
My phone starts to ring but no one's called
I'm miles from nowhere on this temperate night
As the lights descend they have me in their sight
I abandoned the car and scramble for the trees
I tripped over burrows landing on my knees
I can hear the hum I can feel the pull
Like a magnet overhead I feel light as wool
It came from outer space it came from outer space
I'm somewhere far beyond the sun
I feel nothing and I see no one
I have no fear or wish to run and for p[ain I have none
It came from outer space it came from outer space
It came from outer space it came from outer space
It came from outer space it came from outer space
I want to stay here if it's all the same
I have no fear I feel no pain

10 Waiting For Heaven
Noise and shops go away
Petrol fumes and advertising
Fast cars and faster people
Things lying dead on the pavement
And I'm just waiting for heaven I'm just hoping for sleep
I'm just waiting for heaven I'm just hoping for sleep
Filth and lucre go away
Ringing phones and social media
And I'm just waiting for heaven I'm just hoping for sleep
I'm just waiting for heaven I'm just hoping for sleep

All songs by G. Pappas except Tracks 1,4,5,7,10 by G Pappas/S Beckett

P.O.P. POP (2019)

01 Take Me To The Theatre
take me to the theatre place me in a play i want to feel what it’s like living a real life living in a script
take me to the theatre dress me in period costume i want to feel what it’s like living in another body
seeing with different eyes take me to the theatre take me to the theatre

02 Byron Said To Mary
mary said of byron my pillar of masculine power
mary said of byron my bountiful beautiful flower
mary said of byron how mild how gentle how intense
mary said of byron such heroic & dear a countenance
mary said of byron her needs for a father a lover
mary said of byron to the grave I will follow no other
byron said to mary let’s all write a ghost story tonight
byron said to mary am i your father your lover your candle light?
byron said to mary if you follow i will lead
byron said to mary am i your adventure your mentor your need?
beauty sat on his countenance and power beamed from his eye
his faults being for the most part weakness induced one to readily pardon them

03 P.O.P. POP
turn on the machine plug in the cable dial up the sound dial up the software
p.o.p. pop p.o.p. pop
p.o.p. pop p.o.p. pop
he does the beats she does the topline they accept awards hey, all the hipsters love it!
p.o.p. pop p.o.p. pop
p.o.p. pop p.o.p. pop
MTV scheduled department store models underwear models ink on skin models
aftershave models perfume & lipstick mega-brand models so many models so many models
models models models models
p.o.p. pop p.o.p. pop
p.o.p. pop p.o.p. pop
autobend the vocal skipity bounce the vocal trigger happy with machines i give up
p.o.p. pop p.o.p. pop
p.o.p. pop p.o.p. pop

04 Charles Dickens
1812 portsmouth black friars bridge marshalsea edwin drood samuel pickwick bill sikes the artful dodger
charles dickens charles dickens
ebeneezer scrooge abel magwitch miss havisham uriah heep fagin amy dorrit oliver twist jeremiah flintwinch
david copperfield
charles dickens charles dickens

05 Aim With The Wrecking Ball
red brick, sheffield steel, victorian made easy with the wrecking ball
council estate nowhere girls nowhere boys glam rock essex in lipstick rock on david rock on
andogynous love dystopian youth clockwork orange easy with the name drop easy with the name drop
1970’s gary numan the human league cabaret voltaire john foxx ultravox depeche mode
fad gadget david bowie roxy music the clash british punk god save the queen new wave ska
winter of discontent margaret thatcher easy, aim with the wrecking ball
tabloid press privileged class monied junta in the city pin striped suits it’s not pretty it ain’t pretty
go ahead with the wrecking ball with the wrecking ball
1234 aim with the wrecking ball
1234 aim with the wrecking ball

06 Isambard Kingdom Brunel
bridges steamships tunnels industrial engineering isambard kingdom brunel
railways industrial revolution isambard kingdom brunel

07 monochrome
red is vivacious
green is life giving
blue is inspiration
monochrome
yellow is frivolous
purple is melancholic
grey is pointless
monochrome monochrome
black is grim death
white is tasteless
monochrome monochrome

08 Devil In The Detail
the devil’s in the detail
the devil’s in the detail
the devil’s in the detail
the devil’s in the detail
the catacombs are dark and i cannot see...
there’s a heart of darkness there’s a heart of cold...
the devil’s in the detail
the devil’s in the detail
the devil’s in the detail
yeah yeah yeah...
the river is deep and I cannot swim...
yeah yeah yeah...
the devil’s in the detail
the devil’s in the detail
the devil’s in the detail
the devil’s in the detail
yeah yeah yeah...

09 Isn’t It Cliche?
i know this love is a token affair i know this love is a token affair
i don’t mind you don’t care i don’t mind and you don’t care
isn’t it cliche are we both this bad?
isn’t it cliche are we both this tragically sad?
i don’t care you don’t mind i don’t care and you don’t mind
i know your love is a futile wish i know your love is a wasted wish
i don’t mind you don’t care i don’t mind and you could not care
isn’t it cliche? isn’t cliche?

10 Endsong
isambard kingdom brunel p.o.p. pop byron said to mary
aim with the wrecking ball charles dickens devil in the detail
monochrome take me to the theatre take me to the theatre

All songs by G Pappas c2019

1980 REDUX (2017)

01 1980 You Were A Boy
I saw you with your makeup on you looked beautiful
I saw you with your makeup on you looked beautiful
You were a boy you were a boy you were a boy
You kissed my girl
I saw you in your leather skirt you looked beautiful
I saw you in your leather skirt you looked beautiful
You were a boy you were a boy you were a boy
You kissed my girl
I saw you with your makeup on you looked beautiful
I saw you with your makeup on you looked beautiful
You were a boy you were a boy you were a boy
You kissed my girl you were a boy you were a boy
you were a boy you were a boy you were a boy
You kissed my girl

02 I Am Adam
From a hut slight above the skyline a graceless hovel balanced on a hill
And barely hid from the township, he scans for safer ground
The son of Prometheus scours a godforsaken underwood below
A forest so impervious it feels hermitic enough to safely be obscured within
And high from his vantage he reads it like a cipher
Unraveling knowledge of its landscape, its paths its retreats its shelter its hope
Seeking all but escape from much misery and wanton hate
I am Adam of your labours I am Adam
I am Adam of your labours I am Adam
The pursuit of compassion and human acceptance became a miserable, unsated hunger and thirst
He, being born not of mother but graveyard remains
His maker the earnest pupil harboured an obsession to equal or better his venerated mentors
But this godforsaken obsession transformed into repulsion, abhorrence and loathing
Upon the mere sight of his wretched creature issuing breath
Rendering him physically infirm
I am Adam of your labours I am Adam
I am Adam of your labours I am Adam
I am Adam I am Adam
A countenance so wretched he shuns the morning's sunburst
I am Adam of your labours I am Adam

03 Sad Ghost
Sad ghost, you saunter like a sad ghost
You walk uncertain if you’re still alive
Sad eyes. that wander the corridors
Amongst cold strangers that don’t know your name
I want you to know I want you to know
You deserve much more than this I shall speak your name
Sad ghost, my Victorian forgotten child
You died years ago at the hands of your master
I want you to know I want you to know
you deserve much more than this I shall speak your name
I want you to know I want you to know
You deserve much more than this I shall speak your name

04 This Fantastic Voyage
This is such a fantastic voyage I can’t imagine ever coming home
This is such a colourful expression and I feel happy alone
On this fantastic voyage on this fantastic voyage
On this fantastic voyage
This is such a persuasive moment I can’t imagine ever going back
This is such a tantalizing brightness where i feel happy alone
On this fantastic voyage on this fantastic voyage
On this fantastic voyage on this fantastic voyage

05 I Need Voltage
Chosen eyes oval head i 'll construct my own
Frankenstein built his own i'll correct his flaws
I need voltage lots of voltage to construct her switchblade life
I need voltage lots of voltage leather bolts an electric knife
Stem cell skin Hellenic poise i'll design my own
Mary wrote her grandest nightmare but i'll construct my own
I need voltage lots of voltage to construct her switchblade life
I need voltage lots of voltage leather bolts an electric knife
Gliding arms sinuous torso i'll design my own
I need voltage lots of voltage to construct her switchblade life
I need voltage lots of voltage leather bolts an electric knife

06 The Berlin Trilogy
There was Cassie Cassette and Sally Solina and Ems VCS
All three shared the same West Berlin address
It was cold it was damp they took coffees they took teas
And whatever you please bang in the middle of the 1970s
Psyched and wide eyed in Berlin they loved Kraftwerk they loved Pop
Each could dance till they dropped in the counter culture underground
Taking coffees taking teas taking whatever you please speeding fast in the 1970s
Cassie loved to chronicle their thoughts to record all their pluses all their naughts
Sally and EMS loved the noise, loved the pulse and the new wave boys
Consuming liberally and on the move constantly
Now over by the Wall were three artisans, striking yet pasty thin and tall
They worked brightly at night in the subdued studio light
The machines lured them to stay in Berlin we could all be heroes just for one day
Stealing kisses trading rhymes they made for historic memorable times
After a not by chance meeting near their let in a city wafting from kebab and
Coal briquette the two threesomes disappeared down a Berlin alley
EMS left with Brian, Cassie went with Tony and David was last photographed
Crooning to Sally it was cold and still damp they took hot coffees they took hot teas
And whatever you please smack in the middle of decade 70
They began construction of The Berlin Trilogy

07 Atoms Dangling Aimlessly
Suddenly there is no symmetry i can feel i can feel
Suddenly there is no humming left i can feel i can feel
Suddenly there is no focus left i can feel i can feel
Suddenly there is no oxygen i can feel i can feel
I spy with my little eye the sky is spinning to the earth
I spy with my little eye atoms dangling aimlessly
Suddenly suddenly atoms dangling aimlessly
Suddenly suddenly atoms dangling aimlessly

08 Walk On Water
My, my uncertain love you’re never sure which way to fall
My, my unfaithful love your glib replies conceal an insecure cry
But i will walk on water for you
heaven’s anger falls upon me I will walk on water for your love
And i will walk on water for you no remorse will ever haunt me
I will walk on water for your love
My, my destructive love your negative words provoke this heart
My, my broken love you’re never who you want to be
But i will walk on water for you
Heaven’s anger falls upon me i will walk on water for your love
And i will walk on water for you no remorse will ever haunt me
I will walk on water for your love
I I I will walk on water I I I will walk on water I I I will walk on water
For your love

09 In A Film
She touches her hair and she smiles at me in this green art deco foyer
She glistens beneath the chandelier in a blue satin crepe gown
I feel like i am in a film with her I feel like i am in a film with her
Marlene Dietrich Bette Davis Greta Garbo Katherine Hepburn
The concierge glances but remains discreet at her Czech topaz glass necklace
The foyer is host to impatient men holding their drink glasses way too tight
I feel like i am in a film with them i feel like i am in a film with them
Marlene Dietrich Greta Garbo Katherine Hepburn Mae West
I feel like i am in a film with them i feel like i am in a film with them

10 The Playground Of Syd Barrett
Lie back and dream of England sounding the alarm disturbing the calm
The made-up girl slinks into my dream she’s a snare she’s a shadow
This girl’s not from this planet and i’m in the playground of Syd Barrett
This girl’s not from this planet and i’m in the playground of Syd Barrett
Sleeping amongst the moving shadows in a galaxy where time once froze
A black hole sucks life from breath flashes of light crushed to death
And on my stereo psyched and desperate i’m in the playground of Syd Barrett
Lie back and dream of England sounding the alarm disturbing the calm
The made-up girl slinks into my dream she’s a snare she’s a shadow
This girl’s not from this planet and i’m in the playground of Syd Barrett
Dancing orbs on floors of wax emerald curtains conceal the chimney stacks
Of the tavern where a 16th century play write scribes in his baby blues
Arnold Layne disguise and on my stereo psyched and despErate
i’m in theeplayground of Syd Barrett
Lie back and dream of England sounding the alarm disturbing the calm
The made-up girl slinks into my dream she’s a snare she’s a shadow

11 Dark Star
Dark star, i can see the light through the porthole of the satellite
Round the dark star round the dark star
Dark star, i can feel the pulse in the controls of my brain in flight
Round the dark star round the dark star
I stay awake every night for you
I lie awake every night for you
Every night every night every night for you
Dark star, i can hear your voice still
On my crystal radio from the dark star from the dark star
I stay awake every night for you
I lie awake every night for you
Every night every night every night for you
I wait for Lazarus
I wait for Lazarus
I wait for Lazarus

ALL WRITING CREDITS ON THIS PAGE BY G PAPPAS/ALIEN SKIN UNLESS OTHERWISE STATED.