Alien Skin

TRANSPARENT IN BLACK  (2023)

01 She's a Fan 
in your perfect gloom no outsiders room
nothing needs be said victim to 'bela lugosi's dead'
she's a fan she's a fan she's a fan she's a fan 
she's a fan she's a fan in the moon dead night
macabre dark wave delight nothing needs be said
victim to 'bela lugosi's dead'
she's a fan she's a fan she's a fan she's a fan 
she's a fan she's a fan

02 TRANSPARENT IN BACK
transparent in black thin crepe thin lips
i watch her look it breaks my skin
embossed with grit from graveyard nights
the sub earth vault the shadowed moon
transparent in black transparent in black
i love you i love you i love you
i love you i hate you i hate me
i hate you i hate me how i love you,
i love you i love you i love you
i love you i hate you i hate me
i hate you i hate me how i love you
transparent in black a fallen veil 
thin as the night black heart travails
her hollow eyes live underground
my broken mind my parched dry mouth
i love you i love you i love you
i love you i hate you i hate me
i hate you i hate me how i love you,
i love you i love you i love you
i love you i hate you i hate me
i hate you i hate me how i love you

03 Escape from Myself
in the shadows of the dead thoughts 
and haunting repressions
i can not escape from myself
like blood on the soft wing of a hummingbird
i can not escape from myself
there is a hole where i do not look down in
there is a hole that i do not look down in
and it's pulling me in
and it's pulling me in
and it's pulling me down
it's pulling me down
the quiet death of forever once was
is well gone
i can not escape from myself
i can not escape from myself

04 Where Do I Go?
there are spiders on the wall
and the mirror is milky
the paint is thin
where do i go where do i go where do i go?
where do i go to sleep tonight?
there's decay inside my vault
and the light is black and dirty
the air is dead
where do i go where do i go where do i go?
where do i go to sleep tonight?
where do i go where do i go where do i go?

THE DARKSIDE OF THE MOON  (2023)






01 The Darkside of the Moon
i, look out through my window to the moon
the blood red moon of a million slaughtered hearts
i press my head to the speakers and i fly
she, her dazzling hair of red falls on her eyes
the morning of that day still cuts like glass
i press my head to the speakers and i fly
i will look for you on the darkside of the moon
i will look for you on the darkside of the moon
we, talked of everything including death
and finally the abstract became fact
i press my head to the speakers and i fly
i will look for you on the darkside of the moon
i will look for you on the darkside of the moon  

02 One More Hour
if i had one more day
if i had one more hour
to say all the things i should have
to thank you for sharing my life
if i had one more day
i would sit in your shadow
and ask of you what do you say
shall we start this whole thing over?
if i had one more day
if i had one more hour

CREPE GOTH GODDESS  (2023)



 

chain gang laughter walls of wailing
bouncing voices screwed up faces
every neuron in my brain is screaming stop
i have taken all that's given
every hero every villain
one step forward two steps back
i dress to die in mourning black
you're still my crepe black goddess
so imperfect i love you
you're still my crepe goth goddess
unchallenged i love you i love you
glitching noises flashing sirens
flaming mouths moronic idols
every neuron in my brain is screaming stop
i have taken all that's given
every hero every villain
one step forward two steps back
i dress to die in mourning black
you're still my crepe black goddess
so imperfect i love you
you're still my crepe goth goddess
unchallenged i love you i love you

THE BEAUTIFUL DEAD (2023)






01 The Beautiful Dead
in the face of the beautiful dead
a consumptive smile has no place
get it done make it quick
i won't clutch for my better day my better day
if i appear so tragic on the page it's exorcism
if i awake with razors in my hands
don't soothe or touch me
the iron bit of destiny leads me away
into another fallacy for today
stupid grab make it quick
i won't grasp for a sharper day a sharper day
if i appear so tragic on the page it's exorcism
if i awake with razors in my hands
don't soothe or touch me

02 Blood
rose red drops of blood
a sage offering to you
no one cares less the world's just me and you
don't go away don't go so soon
i'll give you every drop i have
i'll give you all the blood you need
just hold your arms out to receive it
i'll give you every drop i have
i'll give you all the blood you crave
just hold your veins out to receive me
borrowed books and time
i'm longing for release
no one knows us
the world's just here for me and you
don't go away don't go so soon
i'll give you every drop i have
i'll give you all the blood you need
just hold your arms out to receive it
i'll give you every drop i have
i'll give you all the blood you crave
just hold your veins out to receive me

03 I Want You Inside My Skin 
shipwrecked on an astro shore
beneath the cobwebbed sky
desperate fingers claw away 
the spiders from my eyes
the blood of roses trickles down
into a bone dry dirt
the half moon like a phantom glows
i cause myself to hurt
i want you inside my skin 
i want you inside my skin i want you i want you
i want you inside my skin 
i want you inside my skin i want you i want you
feeling like a destitute
with rashes on my eyes
open flesh that bears the cold
an affliction that won't die
i want you inside my skin 
i want you inside my skin i want you i want you
i want you inside my skin 
i want you inside my skin i want you i want you

04 Carnival
this is a carnival but i'm not laughing
the crowds look ugly and they're thick
the atmosphere of human candy
makes my senses sugar sick
and i can no longer look at the world and care
the way i once used to do
and i can no longer look at the world and care
like the way i was when i was with you
this war is going on forever
why not just kill ourselves & be done
it cannot happen here but it's here
as my atoms float around the sun 
and i can no longer look at the world and care
the way i once used to do
and i can no longer look at the world and care
like the way i was when i was with you
and i can no longer look at the world and care
the way i once used to do
and i can no longer look at the world and care
i've checked out of my motel room

SILENCE IS NOISE  (2023)


 

silence is full of noise the sound of nothing is still noise
in my head the noise of emptiness is loud
in my head growing louder the further it goes
i'm not alive and i'm not dead and she's not here
i'm not alive and i'm not dead and she's not here
sallow skin of night we walk in silence in the dead of night
in my head i walk with ghosts i cannot touch
in my head the noise of night's consuming me
i'm not alive and i'm not dead and she's not here
i'm not alive and i'm not dead and she's not here
she's not here 

BLACK DANCE DAYS  (2023)



 

01 Depress Me
what waits on the other side of silence  
when all expectations die? 
nihilistic smash up metal on the concrete 
lifeless embalment of life's collected works 
depress me depress me 
who waits on the other side of violence? 
this harm no one wants to touch 
nihilistic smash up head upon the concrete 
no looking back to heroes or life's most precious works 
depress me (you, you) depress me (you, you)

02 You Loved Me
you loved me
you loved me
you loved me
you, if i think of you
i'll think nothing but you
if i think of you
i'll think nothing but you
you loved me
you loved me
you loved me
if i think of you
i'll think nothing but you
if i think of you
i'll think nothing but you

03 Your Stabbing Silence Is Murder
your stabbing silence is murder
your stabbing silence is murder
she plays dark for me
every time she sees me longing
she plays dark for me
every time my eyes start bleeding
your stabbing silence is murder
your stabbing silence is murder
she plays dark for me
every time she sees me longing
she plays dark for me
stabbing silence makes my eyes bleed
your stabbing silence is murder
your stabbing silence is murder
your stabbing silence
your stabbing silence

04 Lie With You
silence bruises morning's jolt me
fallow days fail to resolve me 
leave me be
i want to lie with you
shadows move when i'm not watching
frozen life is not worth keeping
leave it be
i want to lie with you
siren calls me into water
return me to the womb as water
all i care is
i want to lie with you
i want to lie with you

THESE DAYS ARE THE DARKEST  (2023)





01 Diazapam With Milk
diazapam with milk and the milk i do not drink
but the pill is my wall the wall i lean upon
it helps me to rest where my brain cells feel the best
it shuts down the day and pulls me in from the edge
i hate lollipop happiness i'd rather listen to Low than Let's Dance
let's all dress in black let's all dress in black
let's all dance in black eyeliner black
diazapam with milk and the milk i do not drink
but the pill is my wall the wall i lean upon
it helps me to rest where my brain cells feel the best
it shuts down the day and pulls mein from the edge
diazapam with milk and the milk i do not drink
diazapam with milk and the milk i do not drink
drink drink drink drink drink

02 Gorgon
your gorgon hair your venom eyes
your coquette grin your sulfur taste
you kill yourself and i'm, i'm dead inside
your gorgon hair you're bent on pain
matters not much you're a foregone bride
you kill yourself and i'm, dead inside 
drained and out of sleep a smote and broken heap
drained and out of sleep a smote and broken heap 

03 Love Me To Death
the living skin in almost dead 
dullness has become nothing to fear 
there's places were i do not go 
traces of somebody else's life left behind 
love me to death love me to death 
there is a line i cannot cross 
where she's concerned she's second to none 
i fly up to the firmament just to touch her face 
but there's no one there just poison air i fall i fail i crash
love me to death love me to death

04 Mausoleum
come july i will leave you
and in august you'll be gone
suck the poison from the Nightshade
my favourite tonic of them all
i will love you in the morning
i will dress you when you're torn
i'll breathe life into your shadow
and we'll walk right through this wall
come tomorrow i will leave you
and today i know is gone
in this mausoleum darkness
i crawl beneath the bedroom floor
i will love you in the morning
i will dress you when you're torn
i'll breathe life into your shadow
and we'll walk right through this wall
i will love you in the morning
i will dress you when you're torn
i'll breathe life into your shadow
and we'll walk right through this wall

NEGATIVE PLUS  (2023)
 




01 Negative
every face i see will die and every memory through my eyes will end with me 
every bridge comes to an end and every lover foe or friend will end with me 
i will go away don't fret and i'll no longer pose a threat to your plus mind 
sometimes a weight's an overload a rupture tears apart the road ahead of me 
tired and tired and tired i feel i no longer care if i reveal how void i am 
it's so hard to maintain a front i now feel free to lose the brunt that's weighed on me 
i will go away don't fret and i'll no longer pose a threat to your plus mind 
sometimes a weight's an overload a rupture tears apart the road ahead of me

02 Please Come Home
I without you an equation that is less than minus zero 
i don't like to shut my eyes too long there are dreams i don't ever want to relive 
please come home i don't wish to keep you forever 
just please come home i don't wish to wait here forever 
i don't care to wait until tomorrow, tomorrow's promise often lies 
the sky is clear i can see for miles and miles around me 
the sky feels blue i prefer to feel you beside me 
an open wound keeps us from healing broken skin and poison cells within 
please come home i don't wish to own you forever 
just please come home please come home just please please come home 
just please please come home please please please come home 
please please please come home

03 Charlotte And The Plague
in the year of 1327 
i curse my eyes when i see dead heaven 
the black death eats away at bodies life squeezed out of breath 
blood squeezed out of stone sickly decay 
it's Charlotte i bury today 
in the year of 1327 
from the North York moors to Jurassic Devon 
all along the watch tower the reaper whispers name by name 
a dust storm blows my way and wind brings decay 
it's Charlotte i bury today

04 I Keep A Photo Of You
I keep a photo i keep a photo of you
a frozen moment a frozen moment of you
these memories are bitter sweet to me
these memories are bitter sweet to me 
i look at your face i look at your face with me
a distant visage a fading visage with me
these memories are bitter sweet to me
these memories are bitter sweet to me 
i keep a photo i keep a photo of you 

05 Your Death Kiss
love is you love is me
and if it ends let it be
i just can't think like this
i won't forget your death kiss
i can't even compromise just to feel good
oyster grey alice blue
flat colours in my room
doleful shapes on the wall
this game doesn't interest me at all
i can't even compromise just to feel good
love is you love is me
and if it ends let it be
i just can't think like this
i won't forget your death kiss
i can't even compromise just to feel good 

06 The Sedative Is Wearing Off
the sedative is wearing off
and clarity feels sharp
a stranger's voice speaks in my head
i recognize as mine
talk and  talk and talk and talk
and talk and talk to me do it now
talk and  talk and talk and talk
and talk and talk to me do it now
the sedative is wearing off
it's ugly when there's light
a drop of blood upon an eyelid
a love a stain a blot a ruin
talk and  talk and talk and talk
and talk and talk to me do it now
talk and  talk and talk and talk
and talk and talk to me do it now

07 Now Or Never
It's now it's now or never
to lose this weight and tether
to free my hands to free my head
to forgive the mess i've said
regrets are useless time ill spent
i'd rather end up nowhere with you
than to be somewhere without you
and i'd rather tell out loud
the things i've done which i'm not proud
than to think that you don't love me
i don't care if I'm nowhere with you
i'm in pain to be somewhere with out you
and each morning is the same
everything seems drab and plain
and i bore you to go on and on
it's now it's now or never
to let go of this weight and tether
now or never now or never
it's now it's now or never

08 Without You
i walk up to your eyelids and lift your torpid head
i look upon your white face i want to make you care
the streets are full of petrol you can smell it in the air
like incense in a church nave this is the world in which we stand
this is the world in which we stand
without you without you without you without you
without you without you without you without you
your walk is crestfallen and gravity sucks your eyes
in a belladonna tee shirt i want to make you care
the street continues humming past an alcove of despair
we walk up to a cross road this is the world in which we stand
this the world in which we stand
without you without you without you without you
without you without you without you without you

09 Some Of Us Are Like This
why would there be love 
when there is nothing here but greyness?
i have no faith in hope and i don't hope for faith
some of us are like this
cross the great divide the affirmation of acceptance
i don't hope for faith and i have no faith in hope
some of us are like this
why should there be love 
when i don't care for its fulfillment?
i'm alright come what may i'm in my place of cold warmth
some of us are like this

10 Something I Can't Kill
i do not believe in death i won't be around to know i'm gone
everything has beauty but not everyone can see perfection's false
let me see you when you're near you are something i can't kill
let me see you when you're near you are something i can't kill
such a sense of emptiness an absence of something crucial missing
from still life to a jumper's death it's now all streamed and boring me to death
let me see you when you're near you are something i can't kill
let me see you when you're near you are something i can't kill

11 Seriously Myriam
seriously Myriam take off your amulet if you love me
and die for me i'm already gone
seriously Myriam your hemlock mouth is moist and earthy
your body's warm i'm waiting for you
on a fine Mediterranean marble 
i want to see you see you laid out for me
i'm already gone my love i want to see you see you now
seriously Myriam give to me everything you have to give i want it all
and we'll both be gone
on a fine Mediterranean marble 
i want to see you see you laid out for me
i'm already gone my love i want to see you see you now

12 Time Wears A Poker Face
why don't you come, stay i'll promise you anything
why don't you please stay i'm desperate for anything
it's got to be tonight it's got to be tonight
tomorrow may not rise under pandemic skies
time wears a poker face it will promise you anything
let's meet in the same place for now it means everything
it's got to be tonight it's got to be tonight
tomorrow may not rise under pandemic skies
take away my love what do i have?
take away your love what i have?

13 Rachel's Coming Home
Rachel's coming home and i'll make the room for her
Rachel's coming home i'll fix the room for her
the way she likes it black as the sky
the way she likes it black as the sky
Rachel's coming home i'll strip down all the walls
Rachel's coming home i'll prepare all the walls
and i'll paint them black for her to match her eyes
yes i'll paint them black for her black as the sky
Rachel's coming home Rachel's coming home tonight

14 The Moon Is Red
do you remember the first time?
yes i remember the first time
do you remember the first time do?
and now my brain gets tired
the machine inside breaks down
and now my brain gets tired
the machine inside breaks down
remembering you
and the moon is red blood drops on my head
and everyone who dies cut up by the stars in the sky in the sky
and the moon is red blood drops on my head
and everyone who dies cut up by the stars in the sky in the sky
do you remember the first time?
yes i remember the first time
do you remember the first time do?

 CLEOPATRA (I DON'T LOVE YOU)  
 





love lies cut in the busy street in the busy rain, 
blood runs in streams pouring like champagne  
i don't love you i don't love you  i don't love you or want you here 
i don't love you i don't love you  i don't love you or want you here  
ice melts on the floor the winter is inside i've lived and i have died  
i don't love you i don't love you  i don't love you or want you here 
i don't love you i don't love you  i don't love you or want you here 
cleopatra, for her amusement stuck a golden needle in her slave girl's breast 
you're not you're not as bad as that 
looks that wear no face that bother me in sleep 
you have nothing, you have nothing i care to keep  
i don't love you i don't love you  i don't love you or want you here 
i don't love you i don't love you  i don't love you or want you here 
cleopatra, you're not, you're not as bad as that 

BOYS BOYS BOYS   (2023)
 





boys, I think of boys, I think of the boys prostrate at your feet    
boys, I think of boys, I think of the boys prostrate at your feet    
mmm my goddess, my crucified goddess   
I want to be in your arms again  
I remember as if yesterday  a thousand tears ago    
we tripped over Greek ruins a chorus of tragedy surrounds us  
but it was so rich to be alive when everybody loved you    
boys, I think of boys, I think of the boys prostrate at your feet    
mmm my goddess, my crucified goddess   
I'm reading every book you read 
even Plato to murder time classic Russian literature    
we tripped over Greek ruins a chorus of tragedy surrounds us  
but it was so rich to be alive when everybody loved you    
boys, I think of boys, I think of the boys prostrate at your feet, 
my goddess, my crucified goddess   
boys, boys boys, prostrate at your feet    
boys, boys boys, prostrate at your feet

HUG ME TILL YOU DRUG ME   (2023) 

 

hug me till you drug me kiss me till i'm in a coma  
your cold mouth of winter, tombstone grey  
the smell of mortuary flowers beneath the sulphur skies  
butter yellow sun, tired cadaverous eyes  
honey heavy due of slumber honey heavy due of slumber  
honey heavy due of slumber honey heavy due of slumber 
hug me till you drug me kiss me till i'm in a coma  your Kodac eyes snap tight on my drumbeat heart  
the smell of mortuary flowers beneath the sulphur skies  
butter yellow sun drops, look into my eyes  
honey heavy due of slumber honey heavy due of slumber  
honey heavy due of slumber honey heavy due of slumber  
connect with me connect, connect with me connect  connect with me connect, connect with me connect

PUT YOUR LIPS ON MY LIPS   (2022) 
 

 

01 Kiss, Kiss, Kiss  
your clever eyes your knowing face I find in there my hiding place 
call me by name circle my brain sleep in me sleep in me 
kiss kiss kiss the ghost inside me kiss kiss kiss you walk inside me kiss kiss kiss  
kiss kiss kiss your voice inside me kiss kiss kiss your strength to hold me kiss kiss kiss me 
my trembling eyes my solemn face i look at me standing in your place 
call me by name circle my brain sleep in me sleep in me  
kiss kiss kiss the ghost inside me kiss kiss kiss you walk inside me kiss kiss kiss kiss me 
kiss kiss kiss your voice inside me kiss kiss kiss your strength to hold me kiss kiss kiss me

02 Cleopatra (I Don't Love You) 
love lies cut in the busy street in the busy rain, blood runs in streams pouring like champagne  
i don't love you i don't love you  i don't love you or want you here 
i don't love you i don't love you  i don't love you or want you here  
ice melts on the floor the winter is inside i've lived and i have died  
i don't love you i don't love you  i don't love you or want you here 
i don't love you i don't love you  i don't love you or want you here 
cleopatra, for her amusement stuck a golden needle in her slave girl's breast 
you're not you're not as bad as that 
looks that wear no face that bother me in sleep you have nothing, you have nothing i care to keep  
i don't love you i don't love you  i don't love you or want you here 
i don't love you i don't love you  i don't love you or want you here 
cleopatra, you're not, you're not as bad as that 

03 Formed By Your Hand 
i just like to see i just like to see i just like to see the words formed by your hand  
i just found a letter it didn't make much sense to me i don't care i just like to see the words formed by your hand  
words of obscure meaning words on printed paper i just like to see the words formed by your hand 
i just like to see i just like to see i just like to see the words formed by your hand 
i just found a letter your writing could be hard to read it's of no concern i just like to see the words formed by your hand 
i just like to see i just like to see i just like to see 
i remember my girlfriend i remember my best friend i remember my woman i remember my wife i remember you 
i just like to see the words formed by your hand

04 This Happy Life  
this happy life now that your gone my  sanguine face a dress to put on 
kiss me in darkness kiss me at night's rest kiss me in our room it's still here for you 
with every living thing i bury it alive to watch it come back to me 
and if it's really love then let it be complete come back to me for keeps 
midnight it is window moon the wicker chair begins to move 
kiss me in darkness kiss me at night's rest kiss me in our room it's still here for you  
with every living thing i bury it alive to watch it come back to me 
and if it's really love then let it be complete come back to me for keeps 

05 Put Your Lips On My Lips 
put your lips on my lips surrender your eyes look at me whenever you think it’s your time to die 
put your lips on my lips so please just stay while the sky outside is blue in the dark in the void i die too  
put my face on your face your pallor is worn the room is close whenever you think its your time to die 
put my lips on your lips so please just stay while the sky outside is blue in the dark in the void i die too 
outside the day  gives no quarter the sun is blocked by black flags of merciless clouds 
put my lips on your lips put my lips on your lips

06 Yes She Does 
cold earth cold sky cold fire cold eyes she loves me she loves me yes she does 
she loves me she loves me yes she does 
closed door closed room no warmth no word she loves me she loves me yes she does  
she loves me she loves me yes she does 
just like a drowning man i hang tight to belief i have nothing left 
she loves me she loves me yes she does she loves me she loves me yes she does

07 The Greatest Lie  
i thought that i could learn to smile without you i thought that i could learn to laugh without you 
i thought i could express my hate for you but now i know i doubt this too all this too 
i don’t want you I don’t need you is this the greatest lie i ever told you? 
i don’t want you I don’t need you is this the greatest lie i ever told you? 
i thought that i could learn to love without you how can i ever learn to live, live without you? 
i don’t want you I don’t need you is this the greatest lie i ever told you?  
i don’t want you i don’t want you is this the greatest lie i ever told you? 
the greatest lie the greatest lie i told you  

08 Beneath The Funeral Skies  
beneath the funeral skies the party dances one and twenty souls  
with skeleton eyes and murdered hearts false or true smoke and ice dust and earth i wait for night  
i do promise to love you after death do us part i do promise to love you after death do us part  
the peasant girl from Domrémy you are not her and i am not your saviour  
i'll gather the moss i'll stay right here whisper sounds silent words stir the air i wait for night  
i do promise to love you after death do us part i do promise to love you after death do us part 
i will dig beneath the dirt with my rigid fingers you and i are not unique history repeats and lingers 
beneath the funeral skies beneath the funeral skies

09 Unborn 
if i said i'm sorry would you understand if i said i could not i'd not be a lover or friend 
i walk in winter i walk inside this storm my brain fever lingers i want something to feel unborn 
you said it will soon be over please find someone new 
i said please don't speak about this i would rather hold and follow you 
i will freeze in winter i will freeze inside this storm my brain fever lingers i want something to feel unborn 
i walk in winter i walk inside this storm i walk in winter i walk inside this storm 
i want something to feel unborn i want something to feel unborn

10 Halfway Cross The Sky 
a pill for the night it helps me to sleep i see your face upon the glass the dark window the empty street 
today i’m on earth tomorrow i’m gone i’ll follow you halfway cross the sky 
the darkness of space surrender my world to follow you halfway cross the sky 
i feel the guilt alive and alone when it’s always been the two of us why you and not me why me and not you 
today i’m on earth tomorrow i’m gone i’ll follow you halfway cross the sky 
the darkness of space surrender my world to follow you halfway cross the sky today i’m on earth tomorrow i’m gone 
i’ll follow you halfway cross the sky

11 Leave Something For Me (bonus track Bandcamp) 
she left her presence in every room of this house 
she left her future for me to do what i care 
so change everything in any way you want 
just leave something for me as it was 
paint every wall in colours you desire 
just leave something for me as it was 
she's here beside me when familiar life carries on 
so change everything in any way you want 
just leave something for me as it was 
paint every wall in colours you desire 
just leave something for me as it was 

All songs G Pappas, Track 7 G Pappas/D Diluca c.2022 

COLD WAR POP   (2021) 

01 Cold War Pop 
in the distance from a building on a level near the top i can hear someone playing cold war pop 
in the distance from a building on a level near the top i can hear someone playing cold war pop 
i’m dressed like a futuristic nomad, dressed like the last man alive 
dressed like a futuristic nomad, dressed like the last man alive 
in the distance from a building on a level near the top i can hear someone playing cold war pop 
in the distance from a building on a level near the top i can hear someone playing cold war pop 
i’m fixed from my head dress to my makeup, fixed with my Checkpoint Charlie eyes 
in the distance from a building on a level near the top i can hear someone playing cold war pop 
in the distance from a building on a level near the top i can hear someone playing cold war pop

02 My Machine 
this is my machine my fingers curl around her circuitry this is my machine her warm voltage travels to my knees 
this is my machine i will put her into gear her rhythm murmurs in my ear i love my machine i love my machine 
this is my machine i will put her into gear her rhythm murmurs in my ear i love my machine i love my machine 
this is my machine i have never wanted more than this, this is my machine alone and quiet inside my room 
i don’t have to leave my room i have all i need i have all i need she is my machine she is my machine she is my machine

03 Someone With Your Name 
if i say i love you please promise me you won’t feel sick please promise me you won’t feel like i do 
if i shred my fingernails don’t promise me i’ll be ok just promise me you won’t feel like i do 
i don’t care for anyone except for someone with your name except for someone with your name 
except for someone with your name except for someone with your name 
if i darken up the room please don’t mock what i do for you please promise me you won’t feel like i do 
i don’t care for anyone except for someone with your name except for someone with your name 
except for someone with your name except for someone with your name 
i don’t care for anyone i don’t care for anyone except for someone with your name except for someone with your name 
except for someone with your name except for someone with your name

04 I Say I Do But 
i say i do but i don’t realize i say i do but i don’t realize, 
i pick a flower and put it inside your hand i pick a flower and put it inside your hand, only sometimes i will see the things not right for me only sometimes i will see the things not right for me, 
there is something that i want to say doesn’t happen any other day 
i pick a flower and put it inside your hand, i say i do but i don’t realize i say i do but i don’t realize , 
only sometimes i will see the things not right for me only sometimes i will see the things not right for me 
there is something that i want to say doesn’t happen any other day 
i say i do but i don’t realize i say i do but i don’t realize

05 West Berlin Or Die Trying 
if we hurry we may still make the last run home the guards will sleeping or they just maybe drunk 
let us not be afraid of the lights or the barbed wire killers tonight, i love you i won’t let these be the last words you hear 
i love you i won’t let these be the last words you hear, so let’s just do it we can still make the last run home 
if the guards will be sleeping if the guards are drunk let us not be afraid of the lights or the barbed wire killers tonight 
we have to go tonight we have to run tonight before we lose our nerve 
we have to go tonight we have to run tonight before we lose our nerve 
i love you i won’t let these be the last words you hear

06 Charlie Bravo Safehouse (Ost Berlin) 
she was a stranger till i spoke her name she wore a hooded fleece to conceal her face 
the train had  brought here to Alexanderplatz on this grim grey cold war afternoon 
charlie bravo safehouse ost berlin charlie bravo safehouse ost berlin 
she was a stranger with a nervous twitch her body flinched each time i moved in close 
her footsteps quickened i understood her haste on this grim grey cold war afternoon 
charlie bravo safehouse ost berlin charlie bravo safehouse ost berlin 
she was a refugee without a home she had been living close on a razor’s edge 
a stoway to Alexanderplatz on this grim grey cold war afternoon 
charlie bravo safehouse ost berlin charlie bravo safehouse ost berlin charlie bravo safehouse ost berlin

07 Fad Gadget 
i'm with my fad gadget i hold it in my hands it is glued to my brain 
and i don't want to face anyone i don't want to engage anyone i just want my, fad gadget i just want my, my fad gadget 
it lights me up fad gadget i can turn it on or off shape it anyway i want and yes i can be anonymous yeah 
right behind my vpn i just want my, fad gadget i just want my, my fad gadget 
there’s only one thing i need to own and that's my bubble gum coloured smart  phone 
there’s only one thing i need to own and that's my bubble gum coloured smart  phone 
i feel post human with my fad gadget i feel post human with my fad gadget 
there’s only one thing i need to own and that's my bubble gum coloured smart  phone 
there’s only one thing i need to own and that's my bubble gum coloured smart  phone

08 Shooting Of A Bricklayer 
grey is the colour of concrete grey is the colour of my wall so tell me how do i get out of here alive 
how do i get out of here alive grey is the colour of my wall 
even the Death Strip looks promising from here even the Death Strip looks promising from here 
it’s surely suicide but i may not care, crucified upon the Wall crucify me on the Wall i oh i’m already there 
freedom to think is a thought crime freedom to think is not mine tell me how do i get out of here alive 
even the Death Strip looks promising from here even the Death Strip looks promising from here 
it’s surely suicide but i may not care, crucified upon the Wall crucify me on the Wall i oh i’m already there

09 I'm In Love With CWSP 
from Dusseldorf to Berlin from Berlin to London an electrical  language other worldly and cold 
the face of machines erratic and new  we feel it let’s blitz it we feel it let’s blitz it 
i’m in love with silhouettes in vinyl black skirts in starched red shirts i’m in love with electrical language 
i’m in love with cold war synth-pop 
from Kraftwerk to Bowie on the Trans-Europe Express an electrical language controlled with voltage 
post human machines metronomic new men we feel it let’s blitz it we feel it let’s blitz it 
i’m in love with silhouettes in vinyl black skirts in starched red shirts i’m in love with electrical language 
i’m in love with cold war synth-pop

10 I Might As Well Be Dead 
the walls need painting the sink is full of last week’s food she is gone and i don’t care any more any less 
she is gone she is gone i might as well be dead cause she is gone she is gone she is gone i might as well be dead cause she is gone, she is gone and i don’t care any more any less  she is gone she is gone i might as well be dead cause she is gone

All songs by G Pappas. c.2021 

NEW ROMANCE: 1984   (2020) 

01 The Rubber Room 
Nothing to do I have a drink 
Feeling sad I have another 
After a few I feel happy 
But I'm heading straight for the rubber room 
Strange as I feel feeling this way 
I'm moving inside the rubber room 
Into the walls I go a-bouncing 
I've paid my money where's my red balloon? 
Strange as I feel feeling this way 
I'm moving inside the rubber room 
Nothing to do I cut my hair 
Feeling sad I hurt my body 
And after awhile I feel nothing 
I'm heading straight for the rubber room 
Strange as I feel feeling this way 
I'm moving inside the rubber room 
the rubber room the rubber room

02 She Looks A Lot Like Martin Gore From 1984 
Red is the colour of her room, translucent 
Her lips the blackest hue of blue, translucent 
Her sculpted hair her sculpted face 
Her flying saucer eyes 
Her leather skirt her coy girl flirt 
She's a girl and she's a boy 
She looks a lot like Martin Gore from 1984 
She looks a lot like Martin Gore from 1984 
She drinks enough to make her sick 
Before she's anyone's 
She thinks enough to bruise her skin 
She won't be anyone's 
Her sculpted hair her sculpted face 
Her flying saucer eyes 
Her leather skirt her coy girl flirt 
She's a girl and she's a boy 
She looks a lot like Martin Gore from 1984 
She looks a lot like Martin Gore from 1984 
She walks between the silhouettes in shadows 
Collecting vapour men as friends in shadows 
Her sculpted hair her sculpted face 
Her flying saucer eyes 
Her leather skirt her coy girl flirt 
She's a girl and she's a boy 
She looks a lot like Martin Gore from 1984 
She looks a lot like Martin Gore from 1984 
She looks a lot like Martin Gore from 1984

03 She's Glass 
She's glass 
Cuts my heart cuts my face 
Shard of glass pure and clear 
She cuts lines in flesh lines them up 
She's glass she's glass 
How do I stop bleeding for her? 
How do I stop? 
How do I stop bleeding for her? 
How do I stop bleeding for her? 
She's glass 
Razor eyes razor touch 
Shattered glass pure and clear 
She cuts lines in flesh lines them up 
She's glass she's glass 
How do I stop bleeding for her? 
How do I stop? 
How do I stop bleeding for her? 
Bleeding for her bleeding for her 
Bleeding for her bleeding for her  

04 When The Wind Blows Mary 
When all was lost I reached 
I reached for the sleeping pills 
I thought of it all and fell into despair 
When the wind blows when the wind blows 
When the wind blows when the wind blows 
My head is dulled my vision's a milky sea 
The shadows in the wind walk right through me 
When the wind blows when the wind blows 
When the wind blows when the wind blows 
When the wind blows when the wind blows 
When the wind blows when the wind blows 
And the wind cries Mary and the wind cries Mary 
And the wind cries Mary and the wind cries Mary 
And the wind cries Mary and the wind cries Mary

05 Darkroom Sanctuary 
Hold me up to the light and can you read my face? 
All the cracks and lines tomorrow will not erase 
Follow me to the darkroom sanctuary 
Bring me out after dark, I feel less alone 
If I can't have what I want I'll make pretend I don't need 
Follow me to the darkroom sanctuary 
Her candle burns in the night I watch it across the street 
If I can't have who I want I'll make pretend I don't need 
Follow me to the darkroom sanctuary 
Hold me up to the light and you can read my face 
If I can't have who I want I'll make pretend I don't need 
Follow me to the darkroom sanctuary 
Follow me to the darkroom sanctuary

06 She Lives In Tunnels 
Her eyes hurt from exposure to the day 
Her skin blistered and began to flay 
She may be the last person left alive 
In this the year of 2025 
She lives in tunnels she lives in tunnels 
The military built a city underground 
A nuclear strikes was deemed reasonable and sound 
In preparation they had a hundred years of food 
And there were provisions for every kind of mood 
She lives in tunnels she lives in tunnels 
Now the earth's surface is a radioactive sewer 
All the good folks died and  fauna and flora fried 
She lives in tunnels without another human sound 
She kills her time searching hoping for another being to be found 
She lives in tunnels she lives in tunnels 
She lives in tunnels she lives in tunnels

07 Dreams Of A Boy 
Take off your blue dress and put down the phone 
I wish for nothing tonight except for you in my sight 
Wash off your dolls face and move to the light 
I care for nothing tonight except for you in my sight 
Dreams of a boy somehow never come true 
Dreams of a boy somehow never come 
Move to your window my eyes will follow you 
I wish for no more tonight except for you in my sight 
Dreams of a boy somehow never come true 
Dreams of a boy somehow never come 
I never approached her I would never dare 
I watched her glimpses from distant and close vantages 
She was such a swinger then it was 1982 
The out of this world synthesizers padded her movements 
Remember dreams of dreams of dreams of 
Remember dreams of dreams of a boy

08 Stay Away From The Lollipop Clown 
The lollipop clown stalks the street 
The lollipop clown hands out treats 
His sad eyed face makes children weep 
And he comes for them in their sleep 
Stay away from the lollipop clown 
Stay away from the lollipop clown 
The lollipop clown in battered shoes 
Makes nursery rhymes from chain gang blues 
Got a spider's web for things to keep 
And he comes for children in their sleep 
Stay away from the lollipop clown 
Stay away from the lollipop clown 
The lollipop clown has a leery smile 
In colours to attract sub juveniles 
Got a spider's web for things to keep 
And he comes for children in their sleep 
Stay away from the lollipop clown 
Stay away from the lollipop clown 
Stay away from the lollipop clown 
Stay away from the lollipop clown 
Spider's web he'll put you in a spider's web 
Spider's web he'll put you in a spider's web

09 It Came From Outer Space 
There are lights in the sky and my car has stalled 
My phone starts to ring but no one's called 
I'm miles from nowhere on this temperate night 
As the lights descend they have me in their sight 
I abandoned the car and scramble for the trees 
I tripped over burrows landing on my knees 
I can hear the hum I can feel the pull 
Like a magnet overhead I feel light as wool 
It came from outer space it came from outer space 
I'm somewhere far beyond the sun 
I feel nothing and I see no one 
I have no fear or wish to run  and for p[ain I have none 
It came from outer space it came from outer space 
It came from outer space it came from outer space 
It came from outer space it came from outer space 
I want to stay here if it's all the same 
I have no fear I feel no pain

10 Waiting For Heaven 
Noise and shops go away 
Petrol fumes and advertising 
Fast cars and faster people 
Things lying dead on the pavement 
And I'm just waiting for heaven I'm just hoping for sleep 
I'm just waiting for heaven I'm just hoping for sleep 
Filth and lucre go away 
Ringing phones and social media 
And I'm just waiting for heaven I'm just hoping for sleep 
I'm just waiting for heaven I'm just hoping for sleep 

All songs by G. Pappas except Tracks 1,4,5,7,10 by G Pappas/S Beckett 

P.O.P. POP   (2019) 
 





01 Take Me To The Theatre 
take me to the theatre place me in a play i want to feel what it’s like living a real life living in a script 
take me to the theatre dress me in period costume i want to feel what it’s like living in another body 
seeing with different eyes take me to the theatre take me to the theatre

02 Byron Said To Mary 
mary said of byron my pillar of masculine power 
mary said of byron my bountiful beautiful flower 
mary said of byron how mild how gentle how intense 
mary said of byron such heroic & dear a countenance 
mary said of byron her needs for a father a lover 
mary said of byron to the grave I will follow no other 
byron said to mary let’s all write a ghost story tonight 
byron said to mary am i your father your lover your candle light? 
byron said to mary if you follow i will lead 
byron said to mary am i your adventure your mentor your need? 
beauty sat on his countenance and power beamed from his eye 
his faults being for the most part weakness induced one to readily pardon them

03 P.O.P. POP 
turn on the machine plug in the cable dial up the sound dial up the software 
p.o.p. pop p.o.p. pop 
p.o.p. pop p.o.p. pop 
he does the beats she does the topline they accept awards hey, all the hipsters love it! 
p.o.p. pop p.o.p. pop 
p.o.p. pop p.o.p. pop 
MTV scheduled department store models underwear models ink on skin models 
aftershave models perfume & lipstick mega-brand models so many models so many models 
models models models models 
p.o.p. pop p.o.p. pop 
p.o.p. pop p.o.p. pop 
autobend the vocal skipity bounce the vocal trigger happy with machines i give up 
p.o.p. pop p.o.p. pop 
p.o.p. pop p.o.p. pop

04 Charles Dickens 
1812 portsmouth black friars bridge marshalsea edwin drood samuel pickwick bill sikes the artful dodger 
charles dickens charles dickens 
ebeneezer scrooge abel magwitch miss havisham uriah heep fagin amy dorrit oliver twist jeremiah flintwinch 
david copperfield 
charles dickens charles dickens

05 Aim With The Wrecking Ball 
red brick, sheffield steel, victorian made easy with the wrecking ball 
council estate nowhere girls nowhere boys glam rock essex in lipstick rock on david rock on 
andogynous love dystopian youth clockwork orange easy with the name drop easy with the name drop 
1970’s gary numan the human league cabaret voltaire john foxx ultravox depeche mode 
fad gadget david bowie roxy music the clash british punk god save the queen new wave ska 
winter of discontent margaret thatcher easy, aim with the wrecking ball 
tabloid press privileged class monied junta in the city pin striped suits it’s not pretty it ain’t pretty 
go ahead with the wrecking ball with the wrecking ball 
1234 aim with the wrecking ball 
1234 aim with the wrecking ball

06 Isambard Kingdom Brunel 
bridges steamships tunnels industrial engineering isambard kingdom brunel 
railways industrial revolution isambard kingdom brunel

07 monochrome 
red is vivacious 
green is life giving 
blue is inspiration 
monochrome 
yellow is frivolous 
purple is melancholic 
grey is pointless 
monochrome monochrome 
black is grim death 
white is tasteless 
monochrome monochrome

08 Devil In The Detail 
the devil’s in the detail 
the devil’s in the detail 
the devil’s in the detail 
the devil’s in the detail 
the catacombs are dark and i cannot see... 
there’s a heart of darkness there’s a heart of cold... 
the devil’s in the detail 
the devil’s in the detail 
the devil’s in the detail 
yeah yeah yeah... 
the river is deep and I cannot swim... 
yeah yeah yeah... 
the devil’s in the detail 
the devil’s in the detail 
the devil’s in the detail 
the devil’s in the detail 
yeah yeah yeah...

09 Isn’t It Cliche? 
i know this love is a token affair i know this love is a token affair 
i don’t mind you don’t care i don’t mind and you don’t care 
isn’t it cliche are we both this bad? 
isn’t it cliche are we both this tragically sad? 
i don’t care you don’t mind i don’t care and you don’t mind 
i know your love is a futile wish i know your love is a wasted wish 
i don’t mind you don’t care i don’t mind and you could not care 
isn’t it cliche? isn’t cliche?

10 Endsong 
isambard kingdom brunel p.o.p. pop byron said to mary 
aim with the wrecking ball charles dickens devil in the detail 
monochrome take me to the theatre take me to the theatre 

All songs by G Pappas c2019

1980 REDUX   (2017)






01 1980 You Were A Boy
I saw you with your makeup on you looked beautiful
I saw you with your makeup on you looked beautiful
You were a boy you were a boy you were a boy
You kissed my girl
I saw you in your leather skirt you looked beautiful
I saw you in your leather skirt you looked beautiful
You were a boy you were a boy you were a boy
You kissed my girl
I saw you with your makeup on you looked beautiful
I saw you with your makeup on you looked beautiful
You were a boy you were a boy you were a boy
You kissed my girl you were a boy you were a boy
you were a boy you were a boy you were a boy
You kissed my girl

02 I Am Adam
From a hut slight above the skyline a graceless hovel balanced on a hill
And barely hid from the township, he scans for safer ground
The son of Prometheus scours a godforsaken underwood below
A  forest so impervious it feels hermitic enough to safely be obscured within
And high from his vantage he reads it like a cipher
Unraveling knowledge of its landscape, its paths its retreats its shelter its hope  
Seeking all but escape from much misery and wanton hate
I am Adam of your labours I am Adam
I am Adam of your labours I am Adam
The pursuit of compassion and human acceptance became a miserable, unsated hunger and thirst
He, being born not of mother but graveyard remains
His maker the earnest pupil harboured an obsession to equal or better his venerated mentors
But this godforsaken obsession transformed into repulsion, abhorrence and loathing 
Upon the mere sight of his wretched creature issuing breath
Rendering him physically infirm
I am Adam of your labours I am Adam
I am Adam of your labours I am Adam
I am Adam I am Adam
A countenance so wretched he shuns the morning's sunburst
I am Adam of your labours I am Adam

03 Sad Ghost
Sad ghost, you saunter like a sad ghost
You walk uncertain if you’re still alive
Sad eyes. that wander the corridors
Amongst cold strangers that don’t know your name
I want you to know I want you to know
You deserve much more than this I shall speak your name
Sad ghost, my Victorian forgotten child
You died years ago at the hands of your master
I want you to know I want you to know
you deserve much more than this I shall speak your name
I want you to know I want you to know
You deserve much more than this I shall speak your name

04 This Fantastic Voyage
This is such a fantastic voyage I can’t imagine ever coming home
This is such a colourful expression and I feel happy alone
On this fantastic voyage on this fantastic voyage
On this fantastic voyage
This is such a persuasive moment I can’t imagine ever going back
This is such a tantalizing brightness where i feel happy alone
On this fantastic voyage on this fantastic voyage
On this fantastic voyage on this fantastic voyage

05 I Need Voltage
Chosen eyes oval head i 'll construct my own
Frankenstein built his own i'll correct his flaws 
I need voltage lots of voltage to construct her switchblade life
I need voltage lots of voltage leather bolts an electric knife
Stem cell skin Hellenic poise i'll design my own
Mary wrote her grandest nightmare but i'll construct my own
I need voltage lots of voltage to construct her switchblade life
I need voltage lots of voltage leather bolts an electric knife
Gliding arms sinuous torso i'll design my own
I need voltage lots of voltage to construct her switchblade life
I need voltage lots of voltage leather bolts an electric knife

06 The Berlin Trilogy
There was Cassie Cassette and Sally Solina and Ems VCS
All three shared the same West Berlin address
It was cold it was damp they took coffees they took teas
And whatever you please bang in the middle of the 1970s
Psyched and wide eyed in Berlin they loved Kraftwerk they loved Pop
Each could dance till they dropped in the counter culture underground
Taking coffees taking teas taking whatever you please speeding fast in the 1970s
Cassie loved to chronicle their thoughts to record all their pluses all their naughts
Sally and EMS loved the noise, loved the pulse  and the new wave boys
Consuming liberally and on the move constantly
Now over by the Wall were three artisans, striking yet pasty thin and tall
They worked brightly at night in the subdued studio light
The machines lured them to stay in Berlin we could all be heroes just for one day
Stealing kisses trading rhymes they made for historic memorable times
After a not by chance meeting near their let in a city wafting from kebab and
Coal briquette the two threesomes disappeared down a Berlin alley
EMS left with Brian, Cassie went with Tony and David was last photographed
Crooning to Sally it was cold and still damp  they took hot coffees they took hot teas
And whatever you please smack in the middle of decade 70
They began construction of The Berlin Trilogy

07 Atoms Dangling Aimlessly
Suddenly there is no symmetry i can feel i can feel
Suddenly there is no humming left i can feel i can feel
Suddenly there is no focus left i can feel i can feel
Suddenly there is no oxygen i can feel i can feel
I spy with my little eye the sky is spinning to the earth
I spy with my little eye atoms dangling aimlessly
Suddenly suddenly atoms dangling aimlessly
Suddenly suddenly atoms dangling aimlessly

08 Walk On Water
My, my uncertain love you’re never sure which way to fall
My, my unfaithful love your glib replies conceal an insecure cry
But i will walk on water for you 
heaven’s anger falls upon me I will walk on water for your love
And i will walk on water for you no remorse will ever haunt me
I will walk on water for your love
My, my destructive love your negative words provoke this heart
My, my broken love you’re never who you want to be
But i will walk on water for you
Heaven’s anger falls upon me i will walk on water for your love
And i will walk on water for you no remorse will ever haunt me
I will walk on water for your love
I I I will walk on water I I I will walk on water I I I will walk on water
For your love

09 In A Film
She touches her hair and she smiles at me in this green art deco foyer
She glistens beneath the chandelier in a blue satin crepe gown
I feel like i am in a film with her I feel like i am in a film with her
Marlene Dietrich Bette Davis Greta Garbo Katherine Hepburn
The concierge glances but remains discreet at her Czech topaz glass necklace
The foyer is host to impatient men holding their drink glasses way too tight
I feel like i am in a film with them i feel like i am in a film with them
Marlene Dietrich Greta Garbo Katherine Hepburn Mae West
I feel like i am in a film with them i feel like i am in a film with them

10 The Playground Of Syd Barrett
Lie back and dream of England sounding the alarm disturbing the calm
The made-up girl slinks into my dream she’s a snare she’s a shadow
This girl’s not from this planet and i’m in the playground of Syd Barrett
This girl’s not from this planet and i’m in the playground of Syd Barrett
Sleeping amongst the moving shadows in a galaxy where time once froze
A black hole sucks life from breath flashes of light crushed to death
And on my stereo psyched and desperate i’m in the playground of Syd Barrett
Lie back and dream of England sounding the alarm disturbing the calm
The made-up girl slinks into my dream she’s a snare she’s a shadow
This girl’s not from this planet and i’m in the playground of Syd Barrett
Dancing orbs on floors of wax emerald curtains conceal the chimney stacks
Of the tavern where a 16th century play write scribes in his baby blues
Arnold Layne disguise and on my stereo psyched and despErate
i’m in theeplayground of Syd Barrett
Lie back and dream of England sounding the alarm disturbing the calm
The made-up girl slinks into my dream she’s a snare she’s a shadow

11 Dark Star
Dark star, i can see the light through the porthole of the satellite
Round the dark star round the dark star
Dark star, i can feel the pulse in the controls of my brain in flight
Round the dark star round the dark star
I stay awake every night for you
I lie awake every night for you
Every night every night every night for you
Dark star, i can hear your voice still
On my crystal radio from the dark star from the dark star
I stay awake every night for you
I lie awake every night for you
Every night every night every night for you
I wait for Lazarus
I wait for Lazarus
I wait for Lazarus

ALL WRITING CREDITS ON THIS PAGE BY G PAPPAS UNLESS OTHERWISE STATED.